There they are again, fighting
Their words stinging and biting.
Not even involved am I
Yet I'm fighting the tears in my eyes
My heart is breaking
My world is shaking
I am sad, confused, tired, angry
All at once, simultaneously.
I thought it wouldn't be bad now
But it is hurting me to see just how
They are shredding my hopes and dreams
With all their yells and all their screams.
Just when I think I cannot go on
You give me what I need to keep holding on
I've been here before, You were faithful then
Here I am again, and so You'll lead me again.
It hurts me deeply
I ask if You see me
You reply with a "Yes, my dear;
I see your pains and hurts and tears.
Hold Me close as I hold you
Always remember, I never forsake you."
The pain isn't leaving, yet neither are You
In the darkness, a light is shining through
There is hope
Even if for it I still have to grope
I am beaten, broken, shattered, dirty
But still You take me in lovingly
You tenderly wipe my every tear
And ease my heart of every fear
I find the pain is lessening
When on You I am focusing.
The fights still occur, but I know
You have never left me. And so
I press on, as hard as it may be
For You are here, inspiring me
Helping me heal from every hurt
And cleaning away all the dirt.
In all You do, You have shown
A love greater than I've ever known.
No human has the capacity
To hold the extent of Your love so deep
And that is the hope I can hang on to
Always so sure, so real, and so true
Life has proven it can easily bring me down
But life, from You, cannot keep me bound
For in Your Name there is freedom
To live for You and Your kingdom
Instead of being tied to my sins
And being by the evil one imprisoned.
I know, my God, that You are trustworthy
So before You I lay down all my worries
I try to leave them, but I feel incapable
Of laying them down and staying faithful
And true to You, even though I believe
You never have, never will, or ever do leave
So as I bring to You my heartaches
Remind me to not again take
These wounds that have afflicted me,
Just show me, Lord, Your beauty.
The pain is still so real, and it stings
But I come to You and over me You sing
A song of hope, healing, restoration
I never thought I'd see, but now I believe in
And You remind me of Your Son
And all that You have done
You whisper softly "It's not your fault;
This is a result of others not being light and salt."
You wrap me in Your arms so tightly
Gently speaking to me to not go into hiding
But to embrace the life given me
For it was always intended for God's glory
And to bring good to this earth
Although pain is a part of it, and hurt
He reminds me of His vast love
And there's nothing I can do to be rid of
That rich, amazing, beautiful love
That love He is so often speaking to me of
He reminds me that He can turn even bad to
Good for all: for me, for him, for her, for you.
A thought of pain comes back to remind
Me of that horrible, awful time
And I say, "If only I weren't so sensitive,
Why are feelings so much of what I live?"
Once again He comforts me, saying
That He created me that way, to be loving
To show that aspect of His nature
And to be to the world a comforter.
He says not to fret about my personality
That it is a form of His artwork and beauty.
I'm reassured that this is ultimately for good
Even when I can't see it, He is still good
He is mine and I am His
So I shall trust in Him for as long as I live.
