Everyone in the world has something that they are ashamed of doing habitually. It could be something as small as eating a little bit too much dessert on weekends or it could be as something as serious as drug addiction. Procrastination is something that I really struggle with. I know I'm not alone but it's something that is so complex and can relate to underlying issues.
When it comes to my experience with procrastination, it's like a mental blockade. I know I have things I need to accomplish and I recognize that I have to do them at some point. There's always a list in the back of my mind but I just can't bring myself to do it.
I think time management goes hand in hand with my procrastination. I constantly tell myself "Okay, I'll give myself x amount of time and then I'll do some things on my list" but I just end up watching Youtube videos all day, distracting myself from reality. It's really unhealthy. And to be quite honest with you, I don't know how to stop.
My mental health is something that I care about a lot but it would be nice to just have a vacation from life sometimes. With all the pressure school alone puts on a person, especially in the 21st century, can be damaging to someone's mindset. Usually, the pressure comes from ourselves. I'm the type of person who wants to work hard to earn things but it's a lot easier to say that rather than actually doing the actions.
I would consider myself a pretty lazy person. I don't know what kind of habits I do that brought me to this point of procrastination but it's a habit that I need to get rid of and work on before it really starts affecting my mental health and school.