I Procrastinate, And It's Not A Bad Thing

I Procrastinate, And It's Not A Bad Thing

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It started with my first book report in the third grade.

Reading the book was no problem, of course, but I still had to write a report and make a poster. Thanks to my familiarity with Spongebob's boating school misadventures, I knew how difficult and terrible writing an essay could be, so I effectively pushed the thought out of my mind. I finally remembered the looming project a few days before it was due, and if my parents hadn't taken pity on me and helped me put together my poster that night, I don't know what I would have done.

This first big project of my scholastic career became my gateway into the world of procrastination. Ever since that fateful night in the third grade, I have known how important it is to work on large assignments a little bit at a time in order to avoid spending one long, agonizing night on a project meant to take a week or more.

But despite the fact that I knew it was wrong, I never stopped putting things off until the last minute. I tried to change my ways, believe me. Whenever I received a rubric for an upcoming project, I tried to begin planning immediately. I sketched schematics for posters, outlined papers, checked out library books, and even created schedules for myself with plenty of time built in to gradually complete the assignment.

But project after project, year after year, elementary to middle to high school, I continued to procrastinate.

The trend has continued through my college years, though I try to talk myself out of it every new semester. After my first stressful season of college exams, I promised myself to start assignments the day they were assigned in order to keep up with the massive amounts of reading, writing, and studying I had encountered at the university. These well-intentioned efforts have all ultimately ended in vain, as I still found myself writing papers the morning they were due even in this final semester of my undergraduate career.

I have known this about myself since childhood, and have frequently tried (and failed) to change my tendency to procrastinate. But it has taken me this long to realize that my procrastination is not entirely a bad thing.

My tendency to wait on assignments, though sometimes limiting my ability to polish them before turning them in, has actually provided the pressure I needed to produce good work in a timely manner. As a perfectionist, I would spend unlimited time on every paper I write, if given the chance. But waiting until I have the pressure of a deadline gives me the motivation I need to work efficiently.

An impending deadline gives me just the right amount of stress to generate creative, problem-solving ideas for projects and papers. As a result, I sometimes find it hard to write well when I know I won't have to submit a piece for a week. But when I feel I'm running out of time, my survival instinct kicks in and helps me to perform to the best of my ability.

It can be hard to see friends of mine who work differently, finishing their projects ahead of time with significantly less stress. And I know that I should try to set personal completion deadlines for myself so I have more time to polish my work before the actual due date. But after all these years of putting off assignments until the last possible minute, I've realized that I just work well under pressure, and there's nothing wrong with that.

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2. I love...

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5. A funny and/or embarrassing memory of me is...

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6. My siblings or lack thereof influenced me by...

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7. My pet(s) are my life because...

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8. I'm afraid of...

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It's scary.

You want to tell people that today you managed to do more than you've done in the last week. You want someone to be proud of you. But you don't want to get their hopes up. Or yours, frankly. You don't want to tell them things are getting better when you know it's very possible that tomorrow everything will all crumble apart again.

It's worrying about bothering your friends even more when you know you've already over-shared too many times. It's worrying they'll give up on you. It's wanting to give up on yourself.

It's exhausting.

You can't help but feel like you will fall again. You don't know how soon it will be before you're back at the bottom of the ravine. You don't know how far you will climb back up before you slip again. And it's tempting to fall early on this time. Because the higher you climb the harder the inevitable fall will be. You're so close to the bottom that if you fell it wouldn't hurt so bad. At least you'd be on solid ground even if you can't see anything. You could just stay down there forever and save yourself so much work and pain.

You start to see how much work is ahead of you. Problems you had to put off or couldn't deal with start to fade back into imminent existence. Getting back up means doing more than the bare minimum to survive. And even though you want that, and you feel like things are getting better you're still filled with apathy for doing anything more than barely existing.

It feels directionless.

You're starting to get better but now what? What do you do first? What's the long-term goal? Do you even have one anymore? You lost all your aspirations trying to survive day-to day. You could reinvent yourself. Be reborn into a version of yourself that doesn't feel empty and sad all the time. But what would you fill yourself up with? Besides the unhealthy coping mechanisms you've been trying so hard to quit?

You still feel alone. Despite starting to socialize more and returning to the old pieces of your life, you still feel like an outsider. You still feel like you don't belong and you just want to hide away because you can't relate to other people and their experiences anymore.

It's like being a stranger in your own life.

It's as if for just one moment all the rain and wind stops and you can see for the first time as all the mist starts to clear. And you can't help but wonder if it only means you're in the eye of the hurricane instead of the end of the storm. And in the depths of your mind and oh-so-broken heart you know it's the former. You know that even though things are getting better it is not the end. You know this isn't the last time you will have to wipe the dust off your shoes and try again. And it's so hard to see the point of getting back up.

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