When I first started my new job, one coworker in particular stood out to me.
He had been with the company for years and always pushed through any
obstacle thrown at him. He was a man of few words,
definitely did not wear his heart on his sleeve, but even if he didn't tell you he
cared, you knew he did anyways. He was always the first one in the office and
the last one out, always going above and beyond even if no one was looking.
I always thought he was the most dedicated out of all of us.
Then, out of nowhere, he just….changed. He started showing up half an
hour late and leaving half an hour early. When the boss confronted him about
it, he had an attitude that screamed, "you're lucky I even showed up."
A productive day at work was replaced by him playing on his
phone, only doing enough to keep his job while keeping the boss off his back.
The one person I could go to with any question I had turned into someone
I was too nervous to ask for anything because I felt like I was bothering him.
As the months went on, he retreated more and more into his phone and drifted
away from his work and from us. I find it interesting how someone mentally
checks out way before they physically check out, so when he finally left the
company, no one was surprised.
We later found out he had a job lined up ready to go so he wouldn't have to suffer through
unemployed, which might explain the abundant "sick" days he was taking
towards the end. About 2 months ago, on the boss' birthday no less,
he officially resigned from his position at our company.
No heads-up, no 2 weeks notice, no handshakes, goodbyes or good wishes.
At our company, whenever a coworker leaves for whatever reason,
we're encouraged to reach out to them and tell them how happy
we were for the time we had with them and wish them luck in their
future endeavors. I didn't reach out. I figured he didn't want to hear
from me anyways as I am now part of his past.
I've always said how you remind me so much of him, how your name rhymes
with his, how you're both fire signs, how you're both people of few words
who don't wear their heart on their sleeve, but even if you never physically
said the words "I love you", I always knew you did.
You always stood out to me. You dedicated more love and time to me than I
could ever imagine. You always showed up on time or early because you
just couldn't wait to see me, and let me tell you, the feeling was more than
mutual. Even when you tried to say goodbye for the night, we always ended up
talking in the car for an extra hour or two, and it always felt like a second or two.
You were always going above and beyond for me even when you thought I
wasn't looking. I was.
Then one day, out of nowhere, you just….changed.
You started showing up late and leaving early with no explanation
or apology. When I asked you about it, you told me I'm lucky you
even showed up.
Your efforts of going above and beyond for me were replaced by you doing the
bare minimum just to keep me around while keeping me off your back.
You went from being the one person I could turn to for anything to someone
I barely spoke to in fear that I was nothing but a bother.
During our "quality time" together, you retreated more and more into
your phone, drifting farther away from what was right in front of you.
I find it interesting how someone mentally checks out way before they physically check
out, so when you finally left, I was devastated, but I was not surprised.
About 2 years ago, three days before my birthday no less, you officially
resigned from your position in my life.
No heads-up, no goodbye text, no apology.
I later found out you had my replacement lined up ready
to go for when you left my life so you wouldn't have to
suffer through loneliness, which might explain the abundance of "you"
days you were taking towards the end.
When you left, I really wanted to text you to wish you well
in your future endeavors, but I didn't.
I figured you didn't want to hear from me anyways
as I was already in the past.
I've been trying to find someone to fill your role for the longest
time, but none of the resumes I've received have stood out
enough for me to bring them in for an interview, let alone hire them.
Unlike employees, not everyone is replaceable.