What a crazy time, my friends. I feel like so much is happening at the same time, and this is my best shot at putting it into words. I hope that everyone is staying safe and healthy. I know that it can be hard to be isolated, especially when it seems like we're completely surrounded by bad news. Remember that we're all in this together :)
I feel like I'm thirteen
Upset in my room
Because Mom is mad at me again
I feel like no one understands
But aren't I supposed to be an adult?
The world is on pause
And this is everything we wanted
For the hustle to stop for a little
So we could nap
Wouldn't that be nice?
But not like this
There's literally a side panel on the news that says
An upward count
But through all this
I keep thinking about
The way my heart was racing
When I finally graced your hand
With every stroke of your thumb, it beat louder
Oh, so you want this too?
I walk you out
For an awkward and forbidden kiss
That's been replaying in my mind
Just like everything else
And I can't stop thinking
It's like we've got a competition going
How much shame can I take?
How long until I break?
Can't I just give it up already?
I love the burning in my chest
When I almost say it
As close as I can get to the truth
Without the commitment
Send me back
Just let me wake up for class
Let me think about skipping it
Let me drag myself to work and the gym
Let me sit in New York by myself
Out of my mind