To the friends that left me to be with the Lord,

I can't say that it has been easy without you because it hasn't been at all. Knowing that you aren't here to talk to me and help me through life is so hard to embrace. Losing y'all has been horrible and a blessing in more ways than one. Not being able to call you up every time I need someone to talk to or even for one of y'all's giant bear hugs tears me apart. Seeing pictures of us from when we were together just makes me feel like curling up in a ball and crying myself to sleep at night.

Lils, hearing that you got into a car accident blew my mind. We had been talking that morning and you were so excited about seeing me on my birthday and to hang out with me. Knowing that I didn't get to see you on that day literally broke me to pieces. I couldn't see you one more time, I couldn't hear one more corny joke of yours, or if I could have one more stupid little argument over who loved who more (even though we all knew I did). I wish I could see your sweet smile one more time because even if I was having a horrible day your smile would make it all better.

Anna Banana, where do I begin..? You were there for me through everything, knowing that you aren't here for me to throw a sassiness tantrum or just to be stupid with upsets me because you are just as sassy! You're love, happiness, and laughter filled my heart with so much joy. Reminiscing on how much I got to spend time with you makes me feel so blessed to have had someone in my life like you. You were one of my biggest fans, you supported me through every flaw and imperfection that I have ever had in my life.

I'm so glad that I have had both of you in my life for as long as I can remember, I know that we never saw eye to eye and boy do I wish that I could change all the wrongs that went on in our friendships but I can't say that I don't cherish them. I know that even though you guys aren't here physically with me, that you will always be here for me in my heart and that is close enough. Y'all were the best friends a girl could ever have and nobody can ever replace the love I have for you guys. I have learned so much while y'all were here on earth and every day I see you guys in me, I just hope I can be as faithful and loving as you both were. You guys will always hold a place in my heart that will never go away.