People grow up and then they grow apart.

We had the best time making videos in your basement of us dancing and pretending we were internet famous, but when we grew up our lives changed completely and we can never go back to the friendship that we had.

Saying that too much has happened in our separate lives and that it is just too much to catch up on is a terrible excuse.

The truth is, we know about each other and we still smile at each other in the halls, but we are just not the same friends as what we were when we were younger. I still love you and if you called at 4 am needing a ride or someone to talk to, I would be there in a heartbeat, but the love for you like a sibling has faded.

You were my elementary and middle school best friend and you were the person that I played Barbie dolls with.

You were also the friend that I went through puberty with and I don't know how I could ever forget that. We used to fight a lot. Maybe it was because I was too sensitive and too young to know how to handle my feelings the correct way, but it also could be because we just could not stand to be around each other for a long amount of time. When it was summer I would spend night after night at your house, but I remember when it got to be too much time with each other I was more than grateful to go home and have time away from you.

If you're reading this, I'm sorry, but I know the feeling was mutual.

I'm an honest person and I always have been so when I got annoyed or upset I was verbal about it and I know you did not like that. That is mainly the reason why we can never be friends the way we were because you never truly liked my personality.

When I was friends with you I felt like I didn't have a voice and I felt controlled.

I felt like I didn't have my own style and that I had to buy Hollister clothes because you wore them, but honestly I hated the way their clothes fit on me. With my friends now we go shopping at thrift stores together and don't judge what brand of clothing we wear. I think everyone in our old friend group can agree that we all felt we had to really try to impress you to be your friend.

I didn't want to write this to make you feel like a terrible person or a terrible friend.

You were a good friend and we did go through a lot of good times together but everything I said in this was the truth and I won't apologize for that.