My Note To Jesus: I'm Lost, And I'm Sorry
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My Note To Jesus: I'm Lost, And I'm Sorry

My faithful journey revealed.

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My Note To Jesus: I'm Lost, And I'm Sorry
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I'm lost and I'm sorry. I used to look to you for that light in life, the positivity to get me through the day, the push to make me better, and the comfort to know I'm supported no matter what. It's felt like it's been days, months, even years. I have somehow took it upon myself to control what I want in life. Yes, I went to church and read scripture here and there but that wasn't enough. I want you in my life, I need you. To be honest with you, it's been rough.

I'm sad and anxious. In my time of dire need, you weren't there. That's my fault, not yours. I kept on blaming you for all the negatives in my life, and it gets worse and worse. It's not until now, I realize I'm approaching this the wrong way. I need to be more positive. I need to be compassionate. I need to trust you. I need you. Prayer needs to be my fuel, and you need to be my guide.

I was saved 6 years ago, and that changed my life 180 degrees around. You made me more confident, positive, strong, and most importantly happy. Lately, I have stopped walking on that path. I have been confused and lost. It's hard to put in words what I have been going through. I don't know specifically what I need, all I know is that I need you.

Through thick and thin I know that you will always be there. I will continue to go to church and read scripture. I need to work on trusting you and go to you when I'm down. I need to stop giving into temptations and being positive. You are my light when I'm in dark, you are my cushion when I am tired, you are my shepherd to my herd, and I love you for that.

It takes a lot for me to pray without stumbling, I don't pray in front of others, and it's not really comfortable for me to do it either. I don't care anymore. I'm going to do it. I want to talk to you. This gives me hope and inspiration to walk in the path that you forge for me. You have a plan for me and I am not going to fight it anymore. Why? Because I love you. I am not going to do anything half way anymore. The small things in life seem to be the hardest things, but it's not. I realize the only thing holding me back is me. I am not ashamed of who I am and I am not going to stop. You push me to be best I can be and I am perfectly content with that.

Last thing, thank you. Thank you for forgiving me, thank you for loving me, and thank you for not giving up. You are truly as great as everyone says. I won't stop believing and I will continue to love you. Thank you.

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