Life is either black or white
But never gray.
I do not know any other way.
Forgive me for being
So extreme.
This
Is
Who I am.
Right?
Then why
Why do I spend most of my time
Trying to figure out
How I feel
Or if I'm even feeling anything
At all?
Too many colors
Detract from the point
Of the display
But does blending all the colors
Create a muddled dark brown
Or white?
Technically,
White is not the absence of color
But rather
The presence of every color.
In turn, black is not a mixture of colors,
But rather
An actual lack of color.
Light theory confirms this.
But when we mix
Pigments together
On a canvas,
White is not the end result.
Nor is it black.
It is often
Dark brown.
The color of my eyes.
The color of my thoughts.
Not black.
Not white.
Being confused is
Understandable,
Right?
Or rather,
It was understandable.
My mind likes to work around these
Minor inconveniences
In whatever way possible.
And I think
And to a degree, I hope
That I'm not the only one
Who cannot wholeheartedly relate
To the textbook definition
Of people like me.
If my thoughts are dark brown,
Then when they are not dark brown,
They must be a deep sea dark blue.
For those are opposites
On their respective sides of the color spectrum.
So if "black and white" thinking,
Doesn't fit you like a glove,
Then look for the colors that do define you.
If they exist at all.
Maybe you identify more with textures,
Or shapes,
Or sounds,
Or patterns,
Or melodies,
Or gestures,
Or places,
Or memes,
Or literally anything else.
Or maybe you're of the belief
That you don't have to be able to
Put words to what you're experiencing.
The problem with not wanting to
Misrepresent ourselves
By adhering to the textbook definition
Even if it doesn't totally
Fit our experiences
Is that we end up receiving aid
(Or receiving no help at all)
That is not tailored
To suit properly suit our needs.
And it's no good
To wander around
Wearing cookie-cutter clothing
That bunches up in odd places
And doesn't fit quite right.
You do you,
Be honest with you,
Be true to you,
Even if it's confusing,
Or weird,
As long as it feels
Mostly natural,
You'll be on the right track
To accepting you
And to living
A little more comfortably
In your own skin.
