Everyone around me is so pumped to go back to college... and I'm just not. And everyone is acting like that makes no sense, but, to me, it makes more logic than the rapper himself.

Change is hard. Not everyone is good at it. I am one of those people.

When I first got to Penn State my freshman year, I was hardcore terrified. I was leaving my best friends from home, leaving the town I grew up in and learned so much about myself in—I was leaving everything I knew.

I do know change leads to growth. I know that. But I cherish the things I love, and it's hard to say goodbye.

What ended up happening? I loved Penn State so much that I didn't want to go home. I felt like a stranger in my own home when I first got back to my room in May.

I was so restless and not used to my home life routine. I missed being busy. I missed my college friends that turned into my sisters. I missed the clock that chimed four times an hour.

And now, look at me. I can't leave my hometown again. I am so scared that because I know what college is like, I now have expectations for how my year will go and that will be my downfall. I am even more scared that I won't meet any new friends, won't like my new clubs, and will be let down by the dreams I so badly cling to in the back of my mind.

I might be expressing an unpopular opinion, but I really wanted to share with the Odyssey platform that I am not really that excited to go back to college right now. I love my summer internship, it's been more than necessary for me to see my old friends these past few months and my family will be hard to leave again. I know when I go back, I'll love it.

Well, at least I hope so...

But what I'm trying to say is that it's okay to not want to go back to college (the best four years of your life apparently.) It's okay to not be as excited as everyone else. They might be faking it, too, because it's weird to not want to go back to college, right?

No, it's perfectly normal, and I, this random Odyssey content creator, am living proof. You, my friend, are not alone.