After, he left I never thought I would actually be okay. I thought the pain would last and that I would never get over him leaving, after all he abandoned me. It hurt in fact it ripped me apart in ways I thought nobody could. 

However, the complete opposite happened. Him leaving me made me see how toxic he was. I never realized how toxic he was because I confused it with love. And I am sure he did love me, but his love was toxic. See I never really have been the easiest person I am someone who never holds back. He tried to water me down into someone I wasn’t and because I loved him I allowed it. Day by day I let him water me down until there wasn’t anything left to me.  

After he left I kept questioning what was wrong with me and I realized it wasn’t me. Until I realized in trying to mold me into what he needed I became blind to what he was. A broken angry man . Life had not gone his way at all and it ate at him and he became something he was not .. cold. Because of him leaving I now know my worth because of him I am in love with myself. I will never hate that man and truthfully I will always have love for him and pray that one day he finds what is looking for. Most of all I forgive him for leaving me. I forgive him for myself so I don‘t hold on to that pain. 

Ladies listen if you are in a relationship and you feel like you are comprimising yourself too much then the truth is you are. You should not have to comprise yourself to someone you are not. If he is not willing to accept you then he is not for you. Do not hold on to something that you want if it makes you a lesser version of you. Most of all forgive the man who abandoned you do not let him continue to drag you down.