Move over, "Tiger King," because another show has taken the hearts of Netflix viewers.
My girlfriend and I started sobbing at the end of the new Netflix show "Never Have I Ever." A sit-com about a California high school, teen drama, and modern social media trends including TikTok was surprisingly deep, thoughtful, and, above all, exploration of grief and trauma.
Narrated by former tennis star, John McEnroe, the show surprises in a lot of ways. Centered around an Indian-American girl, Devi, whose dad, Mohan, died the previous year, it's a meditation on the Asian-American experience in the United States and a simultaneous meditation on a family going through the grief of losing its patriarch.
"The best thing about Never Have I Ever is that it doesn't reinvent the wheel," writes Kevin Fallon of The Daily Beast. The show has a lot of typical teen drama -- involving Instagram, being cool, finding the right boyfriend and the right friends, and embracing the things that make you unique. It shows the struggle of one of Devi's friends in coming to terms with her sexuality.
The show is fresh, honest, and funny. But it's also very serious, and takes on the topic of one of the most serious things in life -- the death of the father, in a very therapeutic way.
Devi, one of the top students in her high school, has her father die of a heart attack during an orchestra concert, and she starts to develop a paralysis related to her father's death in the few months afterward.
During the show, Devi struggles with her love interest of the hot, cool guy in the school, Paxton Hall-Yoshida. Somehow, Devi believes that raising her social status by going out with a hot guy like Paxton would save her from the death of her father. Towards the end of the series, her child psychologist advocates talking more and diving deep into her sad feelings of her father's death instead of avoiding them, an approach that Devi initially avoids, but learns to embrace.
Devi's conservative Indian mother constantly presents tension for her. Her mother works for an arranged marriage for Devi's cousin, Kamala, as well as preventing her from going to parties and socializing too much at the expense of her studies. I know these depictions of conservative Asian parents are painfully true -- because I have one myself.
When Devi runs away from home, her mother, Nalini, goes to visit her child psychologist. Nalini lets her guard down and confides in the child psychologist, Dr. Ryan, that Devi told Nalini that she wished she was dead, and that Nalini felt like a horrible parent because she was always the tough one on her. Dr. Ryan tells Nalini that maybe she doesn't always need to be so strong in the wake of her Mohan's death.The series ends on a hard day for the whole family: on the day of Devi's father's birthday. Both Devi and Nalini relive memories of Mohan while being painfully reminded of the trauma of Mohan's death. During the course of the show, Devi is returning to normal life after regaining control of her legs.
According to Joshua Rivera of The Verge, the timing, missed time, and grief leads Devi to wants to return to school with a bang, by losing her virginity to the hottest boy in the school. The premise of the show shows that "Never Have I Ever" isn't just the average coming of age story with rom-com tropes. It uses the situation of high school drama and growth to explore grief.
Each character subverts stereotypes we might expect to get a chance at their own growth and transformation. Paxton is overprotective of his disabled sister and genuinely wants to make her happy, despite being a cool jock at school. Eve struggles with a mother who lied to her about her employment and who isn't present in her life, and uses theater as an outlet for her pain. Fabiola struggles to reveal her sexuality to her parents and be open to herself about it, and Kamala struggles against the expectations of an arranged marriage against dating the person she loves. Ben, Devi's biggest rival, struggles with loneliness and workaholic, absentee parents that won't even spend time with him on his birthday.
Slowly and surely, Devi makes everything about herself and her love affair with Paxton. She forgets that everyone else is also going through their own struggles and transformations, and in some way, is selfish in that she only thinks her own struggles matter. As Rivera puts brilliantly:
"While each character can't have a subplot of their own, they're all afforded the potential for depth. Every character is going through something, experiencing their foundational traumas in real time. The central conflict of the show is Devi's inability to see this, slowly realizing that the process of dealing with her own extraordinary grief blinds her to what others are experiencing, and that dealing with that grief poorly can also cost her the connections that will help her move on."
"Never Have I Ever" led me to cry not only because of Devi's grief and tragedy, but because I grew to love all of the characters as they grew up and made hard conversations with their loved ones. The most emotional moments of the show are the funniest ones, as is often the case in our lives.
The show has its rightest place as the number one show in the U.S. -- and you won't regret watching it either.


















