Dear you,

For the past month, I feel as if I am unable to find that thing with you, its a certain feeling that I believe words can't describe. You seem to always keep me on my toes. You give me a certain feeling of uncertainty, but a comfortable one. You have a vibe that makes me feel that I am always on an adventure. Although being with you, whatever you think of "us", makes me wonder if I am what you're looking for, makes me think as to where this is going to go. My ultimate fear is that you will push me away, and just not give me the opportunity to know your heart.

I know I am not the same as most, I have been through more than people think when they look at me. You look at me like I am the same though, you do not have that look of pity or sorrow for what I have experienced, but one that makes me feel comfortable with the events of the past. I have grown up unlike most people, and I truly do believe I feel more than most people do. When I see someone in pain, I would do anything to take that pain from them. When I see you, I want to do that. Your heart has been hurt so much that I can feel it without you even telling me. That makes my heart break for you, simply because I know you have a heart unlike most.

I want to tell you that it's okay. It's okay to feel the pain that you have felt, it is okay to have done what you've done, because we have all made mistakes. It is just a matter of what you take from it. All I want to do is show you that there is a world better where you will get treated the way you deserve, but by doing that I feel as if I am wearing my heart on my sleeve. I want you to feel reassured that I am here and I do not see myself wanting to leave.

Having that reminded, that reassurance, that I will not leave is one I think you fear. It is just something that you have to accept and trust me when I say I will always be there for you and do my best to show you that. All you have to do, is accept it. Accepting love and having someone have your heart in their hands, is the most terrifying but thrilling feeling in the world. I know you have experienced that once before, but so have I. I have had the one I loved most in this world hold me as I cried because I knew I was going to lose him forever.

I just want to show you that I'm just another person that is going to hurt you. I want to show you the world and I want to know what you're thinking. The only thing you have to do is let me in, and if you can't then I need you to communicate that so I am not just stuck here thinking that this is going to be something that will turn into "us."

That right there, is something that terrifies me, even though it is so simple. Having your heart broken can happen within seconds, but can take an eternity to heal. I may not be the one to heal it, but I sure do want to try.

sincerely, "your girl."