I never in a million years, thought that you would be gone this early. You were only a young lady, that never got married, had kids, graduated high school, went to your senior prom. I was thinking all these things, but throughout the week, I thought about everything you did while on this Earth. God knew he wanted you home, that is why he let you attend prom with my brother, made everlasting friendships, went to Tuskegee University to participate in the summer program, go to Disney Land, and so much more.
When I found out that you went home, I did not believe it. I cried every day, wanting you to call me and say "Hey kk". Today, I knew it was real. I knew you were officially gone. No more phone calls, no more hanging out, no more seeing your smile... Jazzmyne, you will surely be missed, by many!!
1. Grieving
When you first hear "He/She has passed", you do not process it. you sit there, thinking is it true, i just talked to them, this is crazy. After thinking about that, you immediately text them, but nothing comes back. Still siting there, staring into space, while a tear starts to roll down your cheek. You realize this is not a joke. They are no longer present.
You will cry and scream. have thoughts roaming in your head. Blame people, from left to right. Not want to talk and embrace anyone.
Grieving is the hardest process you will go through, but let family and friends be there for you. Don't run away from the pain inside.
2. Healing
I just got to the point where I can say Jazzmyne's name, without crying. It is still weird that she is not here no more, but her mother's wisdom has been helping me cope with it. Staying strong for her and her sister, is helping me have strength.
While healing from a death, you have to talk with people and let out all the pain. Keep them alive, by thinking of the beautiful memories you all have. Of course, you will have moments you cry, but a funny moment will eventually pop in your head, and next thing you know, you are laughing and wiping away the tears.
Jazzmyne was a gorgeous girl, that had the most contagious laugh ever. She was sweet and so generous to others. When she passed away, all I heard was her laugh and saw her dancing.
Grieving and Healing is all apart of the process. I am still healing, but I do have moments. While you are going through this, think of the memories and know they are in a way better place.
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