As Gina Rodriguez said In Someone Great, "I met you when everything was new and exciting, and the possibilities of the world seemed endless. And they still are, for you, for me, but not for us." And thats pretty much how I'm going to sum it up. I met you when I wasn't looking. They say the best things happen when you're not expecting them, and I wasn't expecting you. But you came into my life and you made me that girl that was head over heels madly in love. You had me fully in love with you 9 days after I met you. You made me the happiest girl in the world, and I will always remember that summer, because it was amazing.
If you study psychology like me, you've learned about the "honeymoon phase" of a relationship. And f**k is that the realest theory ever. It's those first 3 months when everything is new and your partner is perfect and everything is like a fairytale. But it ends and reality sets in. You start to realize things about your partner that you didn't before, and everything goes to shit.
Nothing was the same after that perfect summer and the few months following that, we fought a lot. But I loved you through it all, and I still do. You didn't treat me right, and I knew that, but I didn't care because I loved you and I just wanted to be with you. I find myself wondering if I'll ever stop crying over you and being sad, and I just hope that one day I can come back and write about how everything worked out and how I shouldn't have let you hurt me this much.
But for now, I love you. I love you more than anything in this world, and I miss you so much. How do you let go of someone that you're still madly in love with? I'm not sure, but i'm gonna figure it out. Maybe one day when were older and wiser we will find each other again, but for now, I have to let you go.
