Hey you,
Good things come to those who wait. Stop wishing away your life and actually live it.
Stop wishing you were graduating and moving away from "this horrible town" because you have four whole years to make memories meet friends and accomplish everything you need to get to college. Plus, you know you love where you came from.
You are who you are,and there can never be another you. Stop overthinking everything you do because believe it or not no one is going to remember that super embarrassing thing that you did on that one Tuesday your freshman year of high school. People are going to remember how you made them feel so, be empathetic and remember that you cant ever judge a book by its cover. Unless its a movie "based" off a book, then its never good- unless its Harry Potter that's the one exception to that rule.
Stop trying to impress other people so much, impress your self. Push yourself, but give yourself a break every once in awhile. AP classes look good on college apps but only if you don't have a mental break down before you make it to college.
You are not "too good" to go to a junior college-because that's where you end up, but it's also where you get super involved on campus, gain a lot of experience, and meet a ton of amazing people.
Do NOT ever be ashamed of who you are. Be loud, be sensitive, be crazy, be quirky. Be who you are and love who you are with your whole heart. Hiding things that you might not particularly like about yourself is just time consuming and stressful. It's so much easier to just be you, and trust me you will find people that appreciate you in all your glory.
Work hard and don't ever stop pushing yourself, trust me you'll be grateful later. Put your whole heart into the things that you do. Love people wholly and unconditionally. You're going to have your heart broken a few times, sometimes by boys, sometimes by friends and sometimes by your family and even sometimes by yourself. But sometimes falling apart gives you a chance to put your pieces back together in a different way and build yourself up.
Don't worry about whether or not you "fit in". If everyone looked and acted the same the world would be an extremely boring place. The Earth needs you and your spark. You will never please yourself if you are constantly trying to please other people instead. You need to stand up for what you believe in and show the world the beauty of what makes you unique.
Stop worrying so damn much. The future is going to happen the way that its going to happen. All you need to worry about is making sure you live the best life you can.
