Learning To Love My Sorority Again

Learning To Love My Sorority Again

Because I really should have never stopped in the first place

In August of 2015, I ran home to my sorority. This day will always be marked as one of the happiest days of my life. I look back at pictures and I can see how genuinely happy I was. Somewhere between now and then, that happiness and that love I felt, began to fade. But as we gathered around the night before initiation, singing and telling stories, I realized just how much I desperately wanted to fall in love with my letters again.

I'm pretty good at putting the blame on everyone but myself, which is exactly what I've done for the past few months. I stopped going to things and started avoiding people, because I let the negativity of a few affect my overall experience. I let burnt out friendships prevent me from finding new ones. I gave into fear and I gave into the paranoia that I could just never fit in. Somewhere along the way, I forgot that I ran home to this chapter for a reason and that I came here, because this group of girls thought that I did fit in with their sisterhood. They say that a few holes can sink a ship, but there's no reason that I can't build a new one. So, that's what I'm going to do.

If I had a dollar for every time I heard the phrase "you get out of it what you put into it" I would have a good bit of money. If I had a dollar for every time I didn't listen to that phrase, I'd have even more money. This is especially true with me and my sorority this school year. I put very little into it and I got very little out of it. I've had some pretty hard times in the last year and instead of trusting in my sisters, I shut them out. I let a few bad friendships skew my views of over a hundred girls. It was dumb and it was childish and it caused me to waste an entire year in my sorority. While I can't get this past year back, I can try and make the next few a lot better.

I guess I was never really a "sorority girl" and I still don't really fit into society's mold of what a sorority girl is (most of us don't) and the more I told myself this, the easier it was to distance myself. I came up with countless excuses as to why I shouldn't go to things. It was rarity for me to show up to anything. So, the less I showed up to, the more disconnected I felt, which just lead to me showing up even less. It's a vicious cycle that lead to me wanting to drop just about everyday, but I know that there's a reason I haven't done that.

I cannot wait to discover that reason. I'm already so much more excited about the fall semester than I was just a week ago. I'm excited to live in the house and I'm even a little excited for recruitment. I'm going to stop making excuses and start forming closer bonds with my sisters. Everything happens for a reason, even the bad things. Maybe I had to go through this rough year to truly appreciate my sorority or to find the people who I know will stick with me through anything. Maybe I'll find the position that's perfect for me, who knows? But I do know that I'm ready for whatever comes.

I don't know exactly why I stopped loving my sorority, because no matter what I thought, my sorority never stopped loving me.

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"The thing is most people are afraid to step out, to take a chance beyond their established identity."
- Demi Moore

Greek life is not for everyone. I am not here to tell you that the only way of life is to join a sorority or fraternity. I am here to let you know that it is okay to take a chance. It is okay to change up the game. I am here to tell you that joining Greek life is more than the stigma or labels. Sometimes, it can help you find yourself.

1. Joining not just an organization, but a community.

Sure, joining the sorority you have or have not been stalking on Instagram or the fraternity your dad bugs you about is cool. What is even better is that you joined a whole community of other organizations similar to yours. Greek Life at SIUE sticks together and although sometimes there may be friendly competition in powder puff or recruitment, in the end you can look at people in other Greek organizations and find that common element. After all, we all took that initial chance to step out of our comfort zone to see what this life had to offer.

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2. Academic Support

Being away from home can be hard, especially when it comes to grades and you don't have your parents there reminding you to study or even just go to class. Being a part of a sorority or fraternity comes with academic expectations and if you do not hit that GPA requirement, you are held accountable. The good thing is that, if you do have a bad semester or you're going through a hard time with your studies, your fellow sisters and/or brothers are there to help you stand back up! They will help you study and get that GPA up to par. Also, there will most likely be one or more other members that are in the same program or major you are in, which means that you will not be attending classes alone.

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3. Springfest, Greek Week & Homecoming

The three weeks that we mark down in our planners the first week of the semester. Getting a team together for these three event-packed weeks are so much fun and the competition throughout the Greeks is outrageous (in a good way, of course). From fighting over the spirit stick throughout Greek Week and campaigning for your representative on Homecoming court, these weeks feel a lot easier to compete in with brothers and/or sisters on your side.

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4. Making Life Long Friendships

Coming to college is scary. For the most part, you do not know anyone and you are eager to meet people. Joining a sorority or fraternity makes the transition a little easier. Your brothers and/or sisters will welcome you with open arms. You may even end up finding your roommate, best friend, or even your future bridesmaids. It is not just four years, it is for a lifetime.

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5. Leadership Opportunities

Building onto your resume, there are a ton of opportunities to get involved even within your organization! There is basically a position for everything. Whether you want to be the T-shirt chair or the President, there is a position for everyone. Not to mention, having the commitment of being in a Greek organization on your resume looks pretty good, too.

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