You Don't Always Have To Like Your Job

God Still Loves Me

I'm a moderately-conservative Christian woman in an inappropriate and suggestive musical, so what?

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We're going to get personal here so hang on and don't judge until you know the full story. I grew up in a legalistic, non-denominational church from the age of two until I was fourteen when my parents realized the legalism. We switched to a very open and accepting non-denominational Christian church that better aligned with our beliefs and values and we have attended there for the last five years. When I say I am a moderately-conservative Christian woman, what I mean is the standards I hold myself to in my speech and behavior are often considered conservative, but I don't care what other people do nor do I judge them for their speech or actions (unless it directly affects me).

As you may know if you've read my previous articles, I am also a (musical) theater performer. The thing about being a performer is that it's a job—sometimes you have to do things you don't like. I'm not saying I don't love the musical I'm currently performing in, "The Great American Trailer Park Musical," but there are aspects of it (lines that are said and actions that are performed—some by me) that I would not say or do in my everyday life.

This rather inappropriate subject matter (complete with a "don't bring your children" warning on the poster) has led me to not want to invite my church friends to see me perform in my first lead role in a college-level musical. I'm afraid of being judged by them; afraid they will think I'm not being a good Christian.

But I am proud of the work I'm doing, and I know God not only still loves me but is proud of my hard work as well.

I am okay because all of the "inappropriate" things I say and do are the words and actions of a character I'm portraying, not the words and actions of myself as a person. God still loves me because He knows I am playing a character, and He understands that my work as a performer does not reflect my own personal beliefs. I am okay because I am playing the role I was given to the best of my ability, and that's what's expected from anyone in any job. God still loves me because He loved me before this show, He loves me during it, and He will continue to love me after.

So there you have it. I'm playing a character who not only doesn't align with but downright opposes some of my personal beliefs. I'm performing in a musical that has inappropriate and mildly-offensive material. I am putting my heart and soul into a piece of art that will not be seen or appreciated by some of the people who I want to see my work the most. And even with all that; I am okay, and God still loves me.

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A Letter From God To Help You Finish The Semester

God sees your struggles and He's here to give you strength and motivation.
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My Child,

The lack of motivation towards the end of the semester is normal. You are mentally and physically tired, but you are almost at the end. Don’t stop walking down the perfect path I have for you. When you’re going along and you come upon a speedbump, I want you to go over it and keep driving. The paper you have to write and the test you have to study for are just small speedbumps I have given you to make you wiser. You can write that paper and you can gain motivation to study for that test. I am here to give you strength, and am here to open up your mind and give you motivation.

You are so loved. You have such a beautiful mind. The light of Jesus shines through your eyes and your smile brings comfort to the world. There’ll be times you feel like you’re carrying a heavy load. There’ll be times you feel like the task I have given you is impossible to perform. But remember this: I would never put anything upon your shoulders that you cannot carry. If I put you in a certain situation, it’s because I know you are strong enough to go through it.

When you feel like crying, cry to me. When you feel like a failure, remember how much I love you. You are not a failure and you are not going to give up. I will hold your hand through every second of your life. I will seek your heart through your darkest moments. I see you, I see your heart, and I see your burdens. And remember that I have your heart which means I also have your burdens. Follow my footsteps and you will be free from the doubt. Remember Mark 4:40-41: “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” I have the power to calm any storm and wave. I have the power to calm YOUR storms and waves. Set your doubt, anger, and tiredness in my hands and simply be patient.

Romans 8:14-15 says,“For those who are led by the spirit of God are the children of God. The spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again, rather the spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship.” Nothing can separate you from my love. Not even your lack of motivation. You have no motivation because you do not feel good enough. You are more than good enough. You were perfectly made by me and when I look down at you, I think of how proud I am of your heart.

Throughout the last few weeks of this semester, you will stumble upon speedbumps. But hold the hand of my son Jesus and you will be able to go over that speedbump with ease. Go write that paper, go study for that test, and go get an A in that class. I know you can because I have given you power.

Love,

God

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Warning Labels For The Bible

If I felt like decorating my Bible with warning stickers, these would be my top ones

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Two of my friends put me up to this, so here I go.

This post is about warnings people should have about the Bible. Some of my warnings are serious and well-intentioned, while others are meant to cause a little chuckle/giggle, at the very least.

Enjoy!

Bible Warnings

Warning: Jesus likes playing hide and seek, even after he died (#Resurrection #Easterday #findthatsheep #findthatcoin).

Warning: Reading the book of Numbers might give you a headache.

Warning: There are some erotic materials in here (I'm looking at you, Song of Songs).

Warning: Don't read this if you don't want your life to change.

Warning: Bringing this to class might cause someone to ask you about your faith.

Warning: R-rated for violence, especially for all those baby massacres.

Warning: Paul is a well-intentioned chatterbox. (Like that wise best friend who always knows when to call your dummy moves out on you or give you that holy wisdom you so desire.)

Warning: Sometimes, the footnotes don't make sense and you have to do some historical background reading on your own.

Warning: Don't read John 6 if you don't want to re-evaluate the Catholic Church.

Warning: Don't be like Jonah. Big fishes are out there still, and they are #hungry.

Warning: Don't read every book in here literally (another Revelation shoutout).

Warning: Jesus proclaims that faith and works are needed, not just faith alone.

Warning: God doesn't want you to be nice, He wants you to follow Him. (God would've had Jesus start petitions instead of flipping over tables if He wanted His followers to be accommodating/nice all the time.)

Now here are some facts.

Fact: God loves you, whether you're sinning hardcore or becoming a saint.

Fact: God wants to be more than just a cartoon image in your dusty childhood Bible picture book at home.

Fact: When you read the Bible or hear it out loud in a faithful community, your life will change. You might not see it right away, but it will, and you will have more joy (not the same as happiness - it's better).

Fact: Something's holding you back from believing this, and I encourage you to address it, cuz your lack of faith is not a good look for you.

Now here is a reflection

As I was writing this list, I started realizing how many stories I know in the Bible. I also reflected on all of the stories in my life. I recalled how God has calmed my heart when I thought it would burst from anxiety. I remembered when God started and ended relationships and left me with a million life lessons because of it.

I remembered that I'm also a part of the story, and the book of Salvation History is not done - I'm a part of it, too, and I am a KEY PLAYER BABY... if I would only embrace my role more as a disciple of Christ!

Basically, I wish to live life in such a way that the warning label "Watch out, this girl's doing Christ's good work!" would be applicable to me. I wish I was on fire for Christ. I wish I was all His and never afraid of it.

Even though I'm not there yet, God has placed that desire on my heart and He will fulfill the good work He has started with me. I just have to participate.

And I hope you decide to participate, too, because being a part of God's story is the most exciting, dramatic, difficult, fulfilling, heart-wrenching (for all the right reasons), joyful, and straight up interesting thing to do while on earth.

See you next time I release a blog post!

Brooke,

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