As I've made my way through college, I have learned a lot about myself.
I've learned that I don't mind being alone. I've found that not all of the friends you make in college last forever. You don't have to be living it up every single moment to be "living right." I don't have to be surrounded by others to feel included. And I've found that I don't mind any of these one bit.
I actually love being by myself or just hanging out with my roommate. We can sit in silence together for hours and everything is okay. No awkward silences, no weird moments, not lack of conversation... simply comfort in the silence. It's honestly nice not to have to communicate with a ton of people every single day. I've found solace in my solitude, and I've honestly never been more at peace with myself.
It's easy to lose track of yourself and forget that YOU have a life to live too. It's not about impressing others or making sure that everyone likes you... it simply just doesn't work that way. That took me a long time to figure out.
People drain me. They want my attention all day, every day and I'm sorry, but I just can't commit to that anymore. I can finally spend my days alone, without any human contact, and not feel lonely for even a moment. When I'm by myself, I can be myself... which is exactly what I want and need. I don't want to be "just another part of someone else."
In solitude, the mind gains the strength to lean upon itself instead of others. You truly reach a point of genuine trust in yourself, and there's absolutely nothing like it.
Who cares if I don't have a boyfriend? And better yet, who cares why I don't have a boyfriend. It doesn't matter. When it eventually happens, I'm sure I'll love every minute of it. But until then, I will continue to basque in my time alone.
Solitude gives you a break to reflect, contemplate, make changes, and etc., which allows you to learn that much more about yourself and what you truly want in life.
I'd so much rather prefer to spend my time doing things that make me, myself, and I happy, and that is 100% OK.
Therefore, do not disrupt my solitude if your intentions aren't true. I have conquered too many battles to let someone ruin the ME that I am today.
You know who's going to give you everything? Yourself. And that is a huge point in me writing about this. Once you can find that peace within yourself, you are capable of anything you want to do or be. You do you, and I'll do me, and the world will continue just fine.
Solitude is independence. I am not anti-social, I am simply pro-solitude.
