Today I am writing with a very heavy heart. I know that world news is usually not the happiest thing or our favorite thing to listen to, but to hear about disaster after disaster, I am truly at a loss for words and heartbroken that I even have to speak these words.

Just weeks after the devastating hurricanes, flooding, and tsunamis in Florida, Texas, and Mexico, now the largest mass shooting in America has happened. Last night at a country music festival in Las Vegas, Nevada a gunman shot from his hotel window at the crowd of country music goers. For someone that has been to their fair share of country music concerts, indoor and outdoor venues, it can happen anywhere, at any time.

This is truly terrifying and devastating.

I cannot get away from my phone. I have watched numerous videos of news broadcasts of shooting and interviews of survivors. The most common aspect in every interview is that everyone thought it was just fireworks at first. I know the sound of fireworks, and I know the sound of a gunshot and that most definitely would not have been my first thought that it was fireworks. I cannot even imagine the feelings going through their bodies as they knew it was gunshots going off and coming to the realization that it was not fireworks.

After watching so many videos, most people did not even realize it was really gunshots until they saw people walking by with gunshot wounds to the face or the neck. Jason Aldean is one of my favorite country music artists. I think it is preposterous that people are giving him so grief for running off the stage just as anyone else would have done. I've seen him and many others that were there for this three-day music festival many times. He has a wife, two girls and a baby boy on the way; just as many other families that were there do. 58 killed, 515 injured.

Can you imagine the atmosphere that was the chaos around Route 91?

I woke up this morning hearing local newscasts because someone from Jason's crew is from Bowling Green, KY. His wife called into the news station and he called her the night before right as the shooting was occurring. He told her he did not want her to wake up and see it on TV or hear it from anyone but him. He told her he loved her and as he said that, she heard another round of gunshots that seemed to be getting closer and closer.

She didn't know if that would be the last time she would ever hear from him again. "What felt like hours was only 15 minutes. But I received a text that he was safe." I can't imagine the gut-wrenching feelings anyone was feeling knowing they have loved ones there that went to have fun and enjoy their weekend.

Other stories read: "My husband grabbed me and pulled me to save me as a first instinct and right about that time I felt him get shot in the back." He did not survive and this couple has only been married for one year. Countless stories, from countless people.

God calls us to love, not hate. So why is there so much hate in the world? Why can't we love one another like we are called to do? The world needs kindness now more than ever.

Be the kindness in the world. Remember to tell people you love you love them. The world needs more kindness. Be kind. We all need prayer. Whether you believe in it or not, pray. God is always listening. Smile. Love. Hug your loved ones. Kindness goes a long way. Love will always conquer evil.

People keep talking about how this is a gun control issue. No. It is the person that owns that gun. It is the person that decides to go out a kill tons of innocent people and injured hundreds more. It is a broken country that needs healing.

I fear. I fear for the future. I fear for college campuses. I fear for big cities. I fear for schools across this nation. I fear for the future generations. If this world is this bad now and we cannot come together to help heal it, can you imagine how it is going to be in 5, 10 or 15 years? The massacres that are happening are horrendous and there is no excuse for why it is continuing to happen. All I know to do is pray. Pray for strength. Pray for the victims. Pray for their families. Pray for healing. Pray for kindness and love. Pray for less hate. Pray for peace. Pray that people see Jesus in the world.

Jesus heals in only a way that you can heal this pain. This hurt.

"Jesus is the same yesterday, and today and forever." Hebrews 13:8

When is it all going to end? When are we going to realize nothing is going to change if we don't come together as one in unity? Seeing these photos and videos have me heartbroken, disgusted, angry. So many emotions I don't know what to say but at the same time, I have a lot to say. How can someone be okay with taking another human's life? Why is that acceptable to you? Why did that thought ever cross your mind?

Romans 12 says:

"Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord.Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse.Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone.If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: 'It is mine to avenge; I will repay,' says the Lord.On the contrary: 'If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.' Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."

We need a change. Not just words on paper, on Twitter, on Facebook, on Instagram, in a text message or out of our mouths, but actual change. Without change for the better, these mass shootings and devastation's are going to continue to happen. If you notice there is a pattern in these shootings. They continue to get larger. They will continue to do so if nothing in the world is going to change.

My heart aches for these families that have lost their loved ones or have injured loved ones today. Some do not even know where their loved ones are or if they're okay or not. I will never understand what possesses a person to do such a horrific thing. This country is broken. It is sad. It is in need of desperate healing. Love as much as you can. Pray often. There is over a five hour wait to give blood in Las Vegas at the Red Cross and that tells you there is more love than hate in the world.

This is not the way the world was meant to be. This is the unbelievable type of thing. The type of thing you see in movies, not what you hear or see in and around you. We need to make a change to see a change and it needs to be done now.

It wasn't meant to be this way.