An Introvert's Internal Thoughts On Public Transportation

An Introvert's Internal Thoughts On Public Transportation

Trains are kind of scary.

I'm not going to lie, I'm an introvert.

I shy away from social situations because they make me uncomfortable. I literally will go out of my way to avoid parties because of the large crowds and social awkwardness. But, I still went to college about an hour and a half away from home, which requires public transportation.

So what do I do? I take the train, even though it terrifies me.

I have been using public transportation for as long as I can remember. The bus, the train, the subway, whatever it may be. I've been parasailing like twice as well, does that count?

Anyways, what I will be talking about is the NJ Transit and the LIRR. When public transportation comes to mind, what do you think of? Personally, I think of chaos. I think of germs and strangers crowding me, which inevitably is what happens.

My stuff is the skateboard and the blue duffle bag, there is was little to no room on the train.

Given that this picture was taken on one of the busiest transportation days of the year (Passover/ Good Friday/ Easter), this was not a shock. At this point, I have taken an uber, three trains, and walked a mile to get home at least five times since starting college, so I'm used to it. This has no negative reflection on me or anyone who takes the train. It's the station that gives me the most anxiety.

I mean, can you blame me. I was shaking in my clothing wondering if I would transfer to the right station and end up on the wrong side of Long Island again.

But then I play the waiting game. This consists of, but are not limited to the daggering questions such as: Where are all these people going? What are in their bags? Am I being nosey or observant? I wonder what they are thinking about me...and DO NOT even get me started on those "mind the gap" announcements. They get me nervous. How can someone fall into this? It is so obvious to not walk next to the tracks. It got me think, though. How often has this happened? What if I get pushed? What if it actually happens a lot and I fall? How would I get out? Would I make it? And so mind is literally a non-stopping machine in these moments of crises.

So I take the train a lot. I have to go on three different ones to get from school to home, and vice versa. Sometimes I go on the subway, but that scares someone who is an introvert. Part of navigating public transportation is to ask people for help. People are there to help, right? It's literally their job. But, for some reason, being an introvert just restricts you from this.

I have gotten over my fears of getting lost, but my heart does skip a beat or two when faced with this overwhelming crowd of strangers moving at the speed of light to get to their destination.

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To The Girl Who Hasn't Been Herself Lately

Your spark return, and you will shine like you were meant to.

Life gets tough. Life gets too much to handle sometimes, and those times make you stronger. However, right now, it seems like you have lost yourself.

It’s difficult when you catch yourself not being you. When you do something or act a certain way and just wonder, “what did I do to deserve this? Why is this happening? When will it get better?” The way you’re feeling is not so much that you’re unhappy, you just feel weird.

Your day will come. I promise you. This is just a phase.

The day you realize how much you have grown from this point in time will be your reward. It is so hard to see now, and I feel your pain.

Your light will return to you. Your pure bliss moments, they are seeking you. Your laughter where your tummy aches is in your reach.

Our moods change far too often for us as humans to understand why, but the encounters you make every day have this effect on us.

You must remember the pure happiness you experienced before your first heartbreak, before the first friend became someone you thought they weren’t, before you lost your innocence. That was a time of true joy as you had not a care in the world for the things that would harm you. Better yet, you didn’t have the option to experience them because you were just a child.

The world can be an ugly place, and your attitude towards life can change every day. One thing is for certain: you did not lose who you are internally. We all put on a face for the world. For the people who we try to impress. For the life we want to live. For the things we want to achieve.

Your definitive personality is still in the works. Believe it or not, it always will be. Times like this change us for the better even though we can’t see it.

Your happiness will return. You will be a better, stronger version of you. In fact, you will be the best version of you yet.

Once this phase is over, you will be okay. This I promise you.

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