I Wonder What You Would Think If You Were Still Here

I Wonder What You Would Think If You Were Still Here

I didn’t know that losing a great friend like you would make me so strong.

It’s been four and a half years since your beautiful soul left us. At first I was scared that I would someday forget you, and I never wanted that to happen. I was so young that I didn’t realize that you would leave an impact on my life that would never leave.

Four and a half years ago, a crisp winter night would turn into one that would impact my life forever. You were driving. My best friend was riding shotgun. My other friends were in a car ahead of you. None of us could even imagine what would happen that night.

To this day, no one really knows what happened for sure. Was the road slippery? Did you lose control of the wheel? I guess we will never know for sure, but we all know you didn’t deserve to go so young.

You were the positive one. The one that brought us all together. You lite up a room with your smile. You never failed to make your friends smile or laugh when they were down. There’s so many things I wish you could’ve been around for.

According to The Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia Research Institute, car accidents are the leading cause of death for teenagers. In 2013, six teens between the ages of 16-19 died every day from car accidents. You were one of them.

My heart felt a physical ache it had never known before. I didn’t know my eyes could cry so hard for so long. I had never seen a guy bawl so hard until the night after you left us. We all wept together and grieved our loss. No one could ever replace you, there was no one like you.

It took a long time to be okay again. We (your friends) stood together and leaned on each other. We did our best to honor you and make you proud of us. We all believed you were looking down on us – our guardian angel.

Before you, I had never a friend so close to me. I was scared I would forget about you. Sometimes I go back through old videos to hear your voice. I look back through old Facebook posts to remember our silly conversations. I still miss you, daily.

At first I didn’t know that I would not only never forget you, but I would think of you every day.

I didn’t know that because of the tragedy that took you from us, I would find Jesus.

I didn’t know that losing a great friend like you would make me so strong.

If you were here, you would be getting ready for your senior year of college. I wonder what school you would’ve chosen, what you would’ve majored in and what career path you would’ve pursued.

What would you think of us? The ones you left behind.

Would you be proud of how we all stuck together after you left? Would you be honored by how we chose to remember you? Or would you be sad that we don’t see each other anymore? That we floated away and let our lives pull us apart.

We do all gather once a year when we visit you. For the short time that we are all together, we forget the petty fights and remember the fantastic memories of the past. We hug and laugh and catch up, I think you would really like it. I hope that you can see us when we do that.

If you were here could you have kept us together? Would you have been the one to rescue us when we were all falling apart?

I choose to think you are proud of us all. No matter where we are now. You were always the one to look on the bright side. The one to cheer us on and pick us up when we were down.

I miss you every day. I hope I am making you proud. You’re my guardian angel and I can feel you near in times of trouble. Thank you for watching over me.

Cover Image Credit: Annie Theby

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Why High School Musicals Should Be As Respected As Sports Programs Are

The arts are important, too.

When I was in middle school and high school, I felt like I lived for the musicals that my school orchestrated.

For those of you who don't know, a musical is an onstage performance wherein actors take on roles that involve singing, and often dancing, to progress the plot of the story. While it may sound a little bit nerdy to get up in front of an audience to perform in this manner, this is something you cannot knock until you try it.

For some reason, though, many public schools have de-funded arts programs that would allow these musicals to occur, while increasing the funding for sports teams. There are a few things that are being forgotten when sports are valued more than musical programs in high schools.

Much like athletic hobbies, an actor must try-out, or audition, to participate in a musical. Those best suited for each role will be cast, and those who would not fit well are not given a part. While this may sound similar to trying out for say, basketball, it is an apples to oranges comparison.

At a basketball try-out, those who have the most experience doing a lay-up or shooting a foul shot will be more likely to succeed, no questions asked. However, for an audition, it is common to have to learn a piece of choreography upon walking in, and a potential cast member will be required to sing a selected piece with only a few days of preparation.

There are many more variables involved with an audition that makes it that much more nerve-racking.

The cast of a school musical will often rehearse for several months to perfect their roles, with only several nights of performance at the end. Many sports practice for three or four days between each of their respective competitions. While this may seem to make sports more grueling, this is not always the case.

Musicals have very little pay-off for a large amount of effort, while athletic activities have more frequent displays of their efforts.

Athletes are not encouraged to but are allowed to make mistakes. This is simply not allowed for someone in a musical, because certain lines or entrances may be integral to the plot.

Sometimes, because of all the quick changes and the sweat from big dance numbers, the stage makeup just starts to smear. Despite this, an actor must smile through it all. This is the part of musicals that no sport has: introspection.

An actor must think about how he or she would respond in a given situation, be it saddening, maddening, frightening, or delightful. There is no sport that requires the knowledge of human emotion, and there is especially no sport that requires an athlete to mimic such emotion. This type of emotional exercise helps with communications and relationships.

Sports are great, don't get me wrong. I loved playing volleyball, basketball, track, and swimming, but there were no experiences quite like those from a musical. Sports challenge the body with slight amounts of tactic, while musicals require much physical and mental endurance.

The next time you hear someone say that it's “just a musical," just remember that musicals deserve as much respect as sports, since they are just as, if not more demanding.

Cover Image Credit: Cincinnati Arts

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10 Shows To Watch If You're Sick Of 'The Office'

You can only watch it so many times...


"The Office" is a great show, and is super easy to binge watch over and over again! But if you're like me and you're looking for something new to binge, why not give some of these a try? These comedies (or unintentional comedies) are a great way to branch out and watch something new.

1. "New Girl"

A show about a group of friends living in an apartment in a big city? Sound familiar? But seriously, this show is original and fresh, and Nick Miller is an icon.

2. "Crazy Ex-Girlfriend"

Ya'll have been sleeping on this show. It's a musical comedy about a girl that follows her ex boyfriend across the country. I thought it sounded horrible so I put it off for WAY too long, but then I realized how incredible the cast, music, writing, and just EVERYTHING. It really brings important issues to light, and I can't say too much without spoiling it. Rachel Bloom (the creator of the show) is a woman ahead of her time.

3. "Jane the Virgin"

I know... another CW show. But both are so incredible! Jane The Virgin is a tongue-in-cheek comedy and parody of telenovelas. It has so many twists and turns, but somehow you find yourself laughing with the family.

4. "Brooklyn Nine-Nine"


Brooklyn Nine-Nine has been in popular news lately since its cancellation by Fox and sequential pickup by NBC. It's an amazing show about cops in, you guessed it, Brooklyn. Created by the amazing Michael Schur, it's a safe bet that if you loved "The Office" you'll also love his series "Brooklyn Nine-Nine".

5. "The Good Place"

Another series created by the talented Micael Schur, it's safe to say you've probably already heard about this fantasy-comedy series. With a wonderful cast and writing that will keep you on your toes, the show is another safe bet.

6. "Fresh Off The Boat"

Seriously, I don't know why more people don't watch this show. "Fresh Off The Boat" focuses on an Asian family living in Orlando in the mid 90s. Randall Parks plays a character who is the polar opposite of his character in "The Interview" (Yeah, remember that horrifying movie?) and Constance Wu is wonderful as always.

7. "Full House"

Why not go back to the basics? If you're looking for a nostalgic comedy, go back all the way to the early days of Full House. If you're a '98-'00 baby like me, you probably grew up watching the Tanner family on Nick at Night. The entire series is available on Hulu, so if all else fails just watch Uncle Jesse and Rebecca fall in love again or Michelle fall off a horse and somehow lose her memory.

8. "Secret Life of the American Teenager"

Okay, this show is not a comedy, but I have never laughed so hard in my life. It's off Netflix but it's still on Hulu, so you can watch this masterpiece there. Watch the terrible acting and nonsense plot twists drive this show into the ground. Somehow everyone in this school dates each other? And also has a baby? You just have to watch. It might be my favorite show of all time.

9. "Scrubs"

Another old show that is worth watching. If you ignore the last season, Scrubs is a worthwhile medical comedy about doctors in both their personal and medical life. JD and Turk's relationship is one to be jealous of, and one hilarious to watch. Emotional at times, this medical drama is superior to any medical drama that's out now.

10. "Superstore"

I was resistant to watch this one at first, because it looked cheesy. But once I started watching I loved it! The show is a workplace comedy, one you're sure to love if you can relate to working in retail. If you liked the Office, you'll like Superstore!

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