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I Don't Know What I Want To Do With My Life.

(& I still don't know)

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I Don't Know What I Want To Do With My Life.

As easy as most of us would like it to be, most people don't just wake up one day and know what to do with their lives. Even the people who seem to have their whole lives planned out are sometimes the ones who are actually the most confused of all of us.

Growing up we go through most of our young life making sure that we succeed in school. We learn math, reading, writing. We memorize and study these topics religiously; cramming so much random knowledge into our minds until we feel like our brain simply can't take in any more information. And while some of these skills do end up being useful in the real world, they seem to overlap what we should actually be focusing on. What we should be focusing on is simply growing up.

Going into college, I was absolutely sure that I wanted to be a teacher. I took all the childhood education classes in high school and got great grades in them, I loved working with children, and better yet my mom was a teacher as well. I felt as if I was born to teach. But as I begin my second semester of college, I've realized that I don't have that same passion for teaching anymore.

Realizing this was a somewhat hard thing to accept. But at a certain point I realized that I was more set on the idea of being a teacher, than I actually was with wanting to be a teacher. I also knew that by coming to this realization, it would mean that I'm putting myself back at square one. That I am now a part of the nearly 20% of students at my university who are enrolled as an "undeclared major" student. So what do I even do now?

For weeks after realizing this, I tried to come up with another career plan fast. I mean, the whole reason I came to this school was because of it's amazing teaching program. So my relevance for being at this school now seemed pointless to me. I got into this habit of taking career surveys online to see which job "fit" me the best. Thinking that if I could just have the answer I needed given to me straight and simple, then all of my problems would be solved. I mean who better to know what career is best for me than "one two three surveys dot com"? But time and time again, I saw that I was never happy with the answer I was given. The jobs ranged from being an accountant, to a real estate agent, a computer engineer, a fashion designer and so on. I mean, at one point the survey concluded that being a bartender would be the perfect job for me.

What was I supposed to do now? What am I supposed to tell my parents when they ask about how school is going? Will I even graduate on time? Where am I supposed to go from here? These are all things that I thought about daily. Constantly worrying about my future; and how unknown and scary it seemed to me.

I decided to go talk to my academic advisor hoping to get some advice. I went to his office with this strong, assured mindset that he would know exactly what to do. That he would somehow have the answer to my problem. I mean he had to, right? Helping lost college students is basically the main structure of what his job is made of.

No.

I was completely wrong. I left his office that day in absolute disbelief from what he said to me. I had explained my situation to him and he stuck to telling me that I needed to just "not think about it so much". Telling me that "I have time to figure it out". I was so mad. I called my sister, who was the only other person I had told at this point about my college-career-crisis and ranted about the meeting. Anger, confusion and sadness all interchanging in the tone of my voice throughout the story. And when I was finally done telling her all of this, she was silent for a moment. But then responded softly with, "maybe he's right?".

It took a while to wrap my head around this idea, but I finally did. A couple of days later, I decided to listen to the advice from my advisor. I realized that if nothing else was working, I really had nothing to lose here.

I'll admit though, it was kind of difficult at first to just totally push this thought to the side. I mean, it's literally the key factor in what my future will look like. How can you just mentally push that to the side like it's nothing?

But once I did, my life became a lot better. I found myself becoming this new person. I started to go out more with friends. I was meeting new people, joining new clubs and going to various activities on campus. I went out to frat parties, dressed up for formal dances, volunteered at fundraising events, and I even took a new class that I wasn't so sure about and it turned out amazing! I found myself simply living my best life and making long lasting memories.

And most recently, I've noticed myself starting to consider going into different majors that I never even knew about before. There were multiple occasions along the timeline of me just enjoying life where I had met people who had told me about their major, the careers they wanted to pursue, and all of that. I subconsciously took this information in, not really thinking too much of it in the moment.

So to anyone out there who is unsure about a career, please try not to stress about it. It will all be okay. You will figure out a major; you will find a career you love; and you will have a successful future. Life has a way of working everything out on its own. Live in the moment and enjoy every moment of your life that you can. Because when you do figure out your future, you will look back at your past self and wonder why you were even so stressed in the first place.

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