I am someone who gives and gives. I am someone who puts others' happiness before my own. I am someone who is considerate of others' feelings and thoughts. Because I am this way, I have come to realize that I seem to expect it from everyone in my life. I expect them to think the way I do, express their emotions as vibrantly as I do...etc. It is not fair. Not everyone is like me in those ways, and that's ok. It doesn't make them any less of friend than me, any less of a partner, any less of a person. I am just someone who loves hard, who can easily express themselves, and has a strong personality. I think that is why at times I expect people to do the same for me as I do for them. I guess what I am trying to say is, not everyone is going to be like you, think like you, or do what you do. I get upset with people in my life who can't communicate, because I can do that well. I get upset with people who can't be strong for me when I've been strong for them. I don't think it's necessarily because they care any less than I do, they just are different than me. I continue to hold high expectations over those around me because of the person I am and strive to be. I can't force someone to talk about their feelings when it's hard for them to do so. It is something that has always came easy to me, but it's not for everyone.

You're always told to have high expectations of those around you, and to choose people in your life that bring out the best in you. I agree with that full heartedly, but I do think everything should be to an extent. No human, is going to meet every one of your expectations unless you're just imagining it. You have to pick and choose what you're comfortable or not comfortable with allowing into your life. Not everyone is going to be you. Sometimes I wish I had people in my life who care like me, love like me, and are loyal like me. I do think I have people like that in my life, they just show it in different ways. It is ok to have high expectations, but have realistic ones. As I get older, the choice to remove toxic relationships out of my life has become easier and much clearer. I know what I need and what I don't. Now having this outlook that I can't expect everyone to be the friend I am, or the partner I am, it is helping me realize some things I really needed to come to terms with. I can't hold it against anyone if they love differently, or express their concerns differently, but I can expect effort and I can expect these people in my life to bring something to the table, whatever it is. And so can you. Just be the person you want in your life. Be the person you wish you had in certain moments you felt alone. Be someone that is admired and makes a difference. I strive so hare to be that person for people. I am naturally a giver and a lover. I love hard, I care hard. That is what makes me, me. All I can do is continue to strive to being the best version of myself and being the person I have always been. I find comfort in that.