“It’s okay.” He will reassure you, sensing your nervousness.
“No, it’s not,” says the little voice in the back of your mind.
Both of you will be laying in your bedroom and he’ll kiss you. His fingertips will rub every part of your delicate body, even the parts that you do not want to be touched. He will tell you that it is fine and give you a list of reasons why he loves you, and tell you how much you mean to him.
He will tell you he loves you and treats you like the queen you are. He will kiss you and call you every beautiful name in the book. Your heart will flutter and you will fall in love.
Time goes on and he will ask you for a picture or two, one of you, and one a little revealing. You tell him that you feel uncomfortable with being naked in front of the camera. He loves you.
You give him your body and he will ask you for more.
You start to feel uncomfortable. He tells you to embrace the body that you were blessed with. “I’ll show you how beautiful you are.” He’ll promise as he touches you again even if you resist. He loves you, remember?
Time goes on and he will become bitter. His touches will turn into hard grasps. The soft kisses that you two shared have now been turned into rough ones that leave you feeling hollow.
His sweet words turn into bitter, nasty words, ones that you never thought you could hear from anyone. You beg him to stop, he tells you he loves you and continues on.
The knocks on the door turn into him trying to break your door down if you even dare tell him that you are busy at home.
“But I love you.” Is what he will use when you tell him that you are ending the relationship. It works every time.
He loves you.
He loves you.
He doesn’t love you.
Love is not you hiding in a corner because you are afraid that he is going to hit you. It is not you crying yourself to sleep over something that he said that made you upset.
Love is not something that should make you feel scared.
Love is not you turning into what he wants you to be.
It is something that you say and something that shows in your actions.
If he shows you the world but puts you down in the process, still saying that he loves you, trust me he does not love you.
Love is where someone realizes that you are unhappy and is willing to let you go so that you can be happy again.
It is something that is so delicate and precious.
Love is when you are able to laugh, be your complete self, and grow with that person mentally as well as spiritually.
When God created love, He did not create it out of fear but out of compassion which is what we should all have.
Relationships do not deserve to run on fear, whether it be a friend, boyfriend, girlfriend, or spouse.
You deserve to give your love to someone who will appreciate and cherish it for what it is, whenever that may be.
You deserve to love and be loved.
