Go ahead and call me the Grinch, but I dread the holidays. Don't get me wrong, I love the food, activities and the holiday spirit, but I cringe at the thought of giving or receiving gifts.
Now, before you start judging me, this doesn't mean that I don't give gifts. I just hate giving them. For years I could never wrap my head around why I felt uncomfortable giving gifts or why I didn't really have much emotion when I received them. It wasn't until I stumbled upon a book called The Five Love Languages. Just in case you've never heard of the 5 love languages, it's basically 5 ways that humans express or receive love. Those five ways are quality time, words of affirmation, acts of service, physical touch, and of course, gift giving.
For as long as I can remember, I have always been really bad at giving gifts whether it's a birthday, anniversary, wedding, holiday or accomplishment. It doesn't mean that I don't care about you or don't love you, I'm just REALLY bad at it. On the other hand, there are plenty of times that I have bought gifts for people. Trust me, I'm not just a rude piece of shit who doesn't care about other people's feelings. I am aware that just because gift giving isn't my personal love language, it doesn't mean that it isn't someone else's.
Therefore, I always try my absolute best to think of others during those special times. However, my gift giving can be very inconsistent. I may have gotten you a really awesome gift one year but not the next. It doesn't mean that I don't care, I just show my love in other ways like quality time, words of affirmation, acts of kindness or physical touch. So, if I mess up and don't get you a gift, please don't hate me or think differently of me. I promise I'm not a complete asshole. I just have a different love language.