Dear Grandma,
Why did you have to be taken so soon?
When I left for college, I knew that you didn’t have much time left. The doctors told us that it wasn’t looking good, but you were a fighter. You always had been, and even though I wasn’t there through it all, I know you would have fought until the very end.
It hurts that you’re gone, but it hurts even more that I wasn’t there for you in your last moments. I was miles and miles away, probably taking notes in class, when you passed. I will never forgive myself for not being there for you. I know that you wouldn’t have wanted me to miss out on any part of the college experience for you, but I regret not coming home on the weekends just to see you. I didn’t think your time would come so soon.
One of the worst mistakes of my life was not calling you every day. I thought I was too busy with classes and extracurriculars. I brushed it off, telling myself that I would visit you when I got home for fall break. I thought our weekly phone calls would be enough.
They weren’t.
I hadn’t called you yet during the week that you passed, and I missed my last chance to do so.
If I could call you one last time…
I would tell you that I hope you’re no longer in pain. The weeks leading up to your passing were some of the most troublesome, and I know that you wanted to hold on. It was your time though, and I realize that there was nothing we could have done to stop you from leaving.
I would tell you that you inspired me. You were the kindest person in the world, and I pity the people that didn’t get to know you and experience that generosity. Even until in your last days, you still wanted to help others. Your generosity and kindness will never be forgotten. I strive to be as good as you.
I would tell you that I love you. You did so much for our family and were a huge part of my life. I would never have been able to thank you enough for everything you did for me as a child. You came to all of my school events, even the little ones, and you never missed a holiday, even when you worked overtime. I appreciate you so much.
I miss you. I’ve missed you since I left, and now that you’re gone, there will never be a point in my life where I don’t miss you.
You were taken too soon, but I know that you’re still here in spirit, watching over me.
I hope that I can make you proud.
Sincerely,
Your Granddaughter
