"If you love someone let them go. If they come back then it was meant to be."

I have always heard that saying growing up, it is almost everywhere. I didn’t understand what it meant, it honestly confused me. If you loved someone or something, why on earth would you let it go. You stay and fight for that that thing or person. It made absolutely no sense to me.  I would refuse to let anything go because I have a history of people getting up and walking out of my life. You could even say I have trust and commitment issues. So when someone walked into my life and I had the slightest feeling that they would be there for a long time, I would get attached and refuse to let go. I want to put a little sidebar in here that this doesn’t happen very often.  There was a point in my life that I was going through a tough time and I heard “If you love something let it go.” I finally decided to try it out, maybe something good would come out of it. In case you were wondering, nothing good came out of it, the boy I let go was awful even though I was convinced that he was my person. Also, fun fact he was arrested in October 2017 and you can say that that was the good thing to come out of letting him go. 

It wasn’t until I heard the phrase again a couple years later that it started to make actual sense. A little background, I meet someone that made my heart melt instantly. He was absolutely amazing, he made me laugh constantly and honestly wasn’t bad on the eyes. We had an immediate connection. There was a point that we decided maybe we wouldn’t work out since we were in completely different places. I was heart broken and so was he, I come to find out later.  I had to dig deep and find it in myself to start looking again, little to my knowledge that would be a difficult task. So, if you love someone let them go and if they come back then its meant to be. A couple months later, we started to catch up and it turned into an “I still have feelings about you, and I miss you.”  Since then it feels like nothing has changed since that summer day we meet. He still makes me melt, makes my laugh until I can’t breathe and make my heart so happy. 

If you are in this situation, then I hope it turns out for the best. Just remember that it can go in one of two ways. I’m crossing my fingers that all goes well this time. I don’t know, maybe I am just jumping the gun a little but as I have said many times before. I am going to dive in head first and if I get hurt, oh well. I have been hurt before and I will do it again if that means that I will find my person.