I do not stand here alone - my fat body often the topic of choice for strangers, onlookers, as if I am a circus-run show. This is often how it is for most of us. We are oogled, discussed as if a diagnosis. Thought to be bitches, unmotivated, gross... isn't there anything better they can do with their time? I am so incredibly tired of the mistreatment. Why should I have to fight so hard to be accepted as a human? Fat ambition is just as powerful, fat bodies are just as sexy and glorious, and FAT people will show you that it doesn't matter how often you attempt to tear us down, we will come out victorious.
My skin will always
Illuminate my scars
Self-inflicted
Mutilated
By years of razor-lined
Bullies.
My body will always be a condition
Not a glorious grand piano
Not the standard,
But a condition.
Closed up
Behind walls
Of stereotypes
Self-doubt
And Loathing.
My fatness
Yes,
Fat-ness
Will always be regarded as
Disgusting
Ugly
Unmotivated
Unethical
Pointless
Cretins of hell.
I will always
Be stared at
As if an amalgam.
This meat suit
Lining feathers amungst needles.
Carelessness so easily tossed aside
When truth is harder to believe
If it comes
In size Fat.
My body
An unbridled temple
Gloriously luscious
Supple waves
Curtains and cascades.
Ribbons of cocoa
Line my thighs
And dance to simplicity.
Skin waters dew
Illuminating
When thought to grow depended caverns.
Strawberry-stuffed heart
Of thorns
Brought down
Dough and nut.
Fact.
No.
Fat.
Confidence exuding
Branded along
Rigged lined skin
To prove a point
To exist.
Stand taller
Then what they expect.
Speak louder
So they can hear.
Breathe deeper
To remind your lungs
That you
Are worth the air.
More than the tightened ropes
They wrapped around your throat;
More than the disgust
Distaste
Morbidity.
Fatness
Glorified
Sunsoaked ridges
Do nothing but shine
In the darkness.
We will not change. We will not falter. We will stand taller and show all of you how truly wrong you have been - one sexy, fat body at a time. Oh, and if you take it upon yourself to open your lips to convey how disgusting you think we are, we simply pose this... what is it about yourself that you hate so much for you to act so rudely? When you can answer that, perhaps we will have a better conversation.
