To the girl who can't cry,

You walk through life with the biggest smile on your face. You make plans for the weekend and you are never one to turn down a party. You have friends and friends and you are very rarely found alone. Don't get me wrong all of this is great, but I see you.

I see you wanting to feel wanted. I know that he doesnt care about you the way you want him to. I know that you can't make it a big deal and that even though you feel unwanted and used you push those emotions under your rug and "move on".

I see you feeling adequate. You spend your time studying all night only to get a C. You buy the latest trends only for the walmart t-shirt to look so much better than your outfit on someone else. You are always out on the town only to leave early because your heart wasn't in it.

I see you feeling like a disappointment. Your mom or dad left and the other one is doing the best they can to pay for your average grades. You never do anything right in his eyes so he hangs up on you because its not worth the argument anymore. You sit in your bed wondering where it all went wrong.

I see you. The real you. Behind all the happy smiles there are sad eyes. But you can't cry. If you cry all your troubles become reality and everyone will know the real you. You can't cry because then you won't be able to keep it under control. So you smile and you move on.