I've only been at my college for a few days now, and things for me are extremely different. I'm sharing a room with someone for an extended period of time, which is a first for me since I grew up with brothers and we had separate rooms of course. I'm not near my close friends and really don't know how to put myself out there to be friends. It scares me to think that I'm forty-five minutes away from my whole life in my small town that no one on campus has ever heard of. I feel like a fish out of the water, and I feel uncertain in every interaction I make with people.

When I got moved in I didn't leave the dorm at all until the next day but even then I still felt awkward. Everything has just been so overwhelming because unlike everyone I know going to college, I'm not rooming with a close friend. I'm more introverted than extroverted, and it's not that I don't have friends on campus because I know the people at Odyssey are there for me and there's a good handful of people from my high school that goes here but It feels weird.

I'm not extremely close to anyone but I know that I can talk to multiple people about things If needed. It's hard to explain how I feel really but I'm in that super weird state of just wanting to cry and wanting to get out there and make the most of these next two semesters. I'm stressing over how to get to one of my classes in fifth teen minutes, and constantly going up and down the four flights of stairs every day.

The first night I slept in the bed I woke up sore and wishing I would have followed my gut and brought some Icy-hot from home. Regardless of the dorm room beds, I have no sure where to go or what to do. I don't want to go to parties, and I don't want to get mixed up with guys. I want to focus on school and make sure I get good grades, but I also want a social life and to have a good time.

Honestly, I want to grow into my own person and find a place where I can belong, and since I joined Odyssey it has been amazing. For the past two to three months now I've been writing for them and everyone I've talked to is amazing. Everyone is extremely helpful and creative, and a good majority of them made the main page (which is a very big deal). Odyssey has been my creative outlet and a great way to get my mind thinking to get around my writer's block. It's crazy to believe that college is here and that I'm going to be learning so much information in short amounts of time.

It feels like only yesterday that I graduated high school, But even though I'm in a scary new place, and have all these feelings about school and everything, I at least know that I still have my awesome Odyssey platform to express everything I'm feeling/thinking and also information I want to let others know.