Feeling left out and getting walked all over

I'm Tired Of Always Getting Walked All Over

Being taken for granted is a terrible feeling.

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Feeling underappreciated is the worst feeling to have. After putting so much work into something just to feel like you belong and to make new friends, it's a slap in the face to not succeed.

It sucks.

I think people just take my hard work for granted and don't think, care, or appreciate what I do.

People just use you for when it's convenient and benefits them.

I've learned this many different times, in many different situations.... and it's all the same, the same outcome.

I realize that some people aren't meant to be friends with me.

I just don't understand why I have to find out and realize after I put time and effort into the relationships I build.

I'm not just a fly on the wall, I'm a person and I'm not invisible.

Yet, it sure feels like that.

I'm at a competition and the first half is volunteering for the younger kids. I help table, sell raffle tickets, sell shirts and other apparel and then I get left. I get stuck doing it all by myself while everyone goes off and have fun, except the four people we are partnering with to do fundraising outside of our group.

I didn't mind at first. But then, I get a short break to get away to watch all the action! I am told about 20 minutes later to go relieve those four people so they could get a chance to see what our group is all about. So, I tell them that they can go see the competition since they haven't seen one before and they all leave me alone in the corner.

I watch the table, watch the money made, and watch the merchandise, all for an hour with nothing to do. I get to watch the competition from afar and everyone having fun.

But I'm not.

I didn't want to make a scene; I'm trying to fit in.

But I feel as if I'm alone.

Eventually, those four people come back because they "feel bad" for leaving me alone. But the damage is already done.

At least someone else could've come over from my own group to talk to me, to switch out with me and let me enjoy the competition. But no, no one did.

It's not those four people's fault. They have been working all day at the table like myself.

Later, I have to sit there and watch how my group thanks and compliments those four people who partnered with us and ignore me.

I still have one more day with my group and from now on, I will not be taken lightly. I will watch how these people work and see who they really are. See if I do belong or if I'm just deadweight to them. See if I could get around this bump and move on. Or have to let this group go and find something new for myself.

I wish I would stop people from walking all over me.

I wish it didn't have to come to this.

I wish I had a better judge of character and made worthwhile friendships.

I wish that I could be someone people wanted and valued.

Someone people could stick with and not let me down.

I get let down a lot and no matter what I do I always get disappointed. I put myself out there and I just let myself get hurt every time.

Hopefully one day that will change.

Thanks for reading.

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When I decided to graduate a year early, I never thought about how hard it would be to say goodbye. The best part of my three-year journey at Florida State was the friends that I had made. The friends you meet in college are the friends you will never forget. Although in two weeks we will be miles apart, this is not the end of us-- this is a different type of forever. At this point, all I can say is thank you for making my time here unforgettable. Thank you:

1. For buying me Ice Cream when I had a bad day.

2. For pushing me out of my comfort zone. 

3. For teaching me the right way to do Happy Hour. 

4. For complimenting me when I wore that tight dress.

5. For forcing me to go to the library with you.

6. For *trying* to make me go to the gym.

7. For giving me great advice that you know I won't follow. 

8. For letting me borrow your new shirt even though you haven't even worn it yet.

9. For forgiving me when I get a little sassy.

10. For telling me I can do better. 

11. For reading my shitty articles. 

12. For ignoring my absolutely terrible singing. 

13. For laughing at my jokes. 

14. For roasting me in the group chat. 

15. For driving me to class when I was too lazy to find parking. 

16. For picking me up from class when I was too lazy to walk back home.

17. For lending me money because I really REALLY needed that extra guacamole.

18. For tolerating my annoying self after your stressful day.

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20. For being the best friends I ever had.

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An Open Letter To The Friend Who Continues To Save My Life

No one knows me like you do.

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From the day we became friends, we have always had nothing but support for one another. Although we have only really been friends for about seven years now, I feel as if you have always been a part of my life. You know me just as well as you know yourself, and I understand you in the same way I understand my own thoughts and feelings.

You have never made me feel pressured, insecure, or unappreciated. The mutual respect we have for one another is unmatched. We can talk to each other about anything; from some of the most trivial topics to entire life philosophies. We have grown and matured together, and I couldn't be more proud of the person you are today.

We don't always agree on everything, and I always appreciate your fresh point of view, but I have never felt more in sync with another person than I do with you. We share the same birth month, the same age, the same home town, the same anxieties, and many of the same attitudes and values.

I feel as if you know exactly when I want to be alone and when I need company. Since we are both introverted, we understand that the other person needs time to recharge. And when I'm sitting alone with nothing to do, I always get a text from you asking to hang out.

In some of my loneliest, most vulnerable moments, you have been there. When I question how many true friends I really have, you are always sure to make your love for me known.

Through high school, and now college, we have experienced so many life-changing events together. Some that have taught us extremely valuable lessons, and others that have shown us incredible pain and how to grow from our lowest moments.

I want to thank you for showing me what life-long friendship looks like. Thank you for always understanding me and never putting too much pressure on me. I see an incredible future for both of us no matter where each of our lives takes us.

We will always share a unique connection that cannot be separated by any distance. But, for now, I'm glad you're only one text or phone call away.

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