Im twenty-one, almost twenty-two, years old and I'm working on completing my bachelors degree. I have a part time job and have been in a relationship with a great guy for a little over a year.

I have friends getting engaged, moving in together, moving across the country to live together, and some friends are either already married or in the process of getting hitched. Ive been a part of two wedding so far and I'm about to be in another one next year.

I love the idea of my friends finding their soulmate and I'm super excited for all of these wonderful people I know that are tying the knot, but I know deep down that marriage just isn't for me.

To me, marriage means nothing. You hear of people being cheated on, lied to, and abused by their spouse all the time, no matter if they are married or not. These people took a vow before God and their families to remain faithful to their spouse. The vows they so prominently pronounced in front of their guests were broken.

Ive heard people say, "Oh, you will change your mind when you get to that point in your life. You're too wrapped up in college to even be thinking about that right now. Your time will come."

Yet, there are people that I know who are younger than me that are already married and some have kids. It blows my mind.

I never want to be in a situation where I wouldn't be able to leave a man easily if I wanted to.

I could live with and create a life with a man, which I hope I'll be able to do someday, but I know the idea of marriage will be thrown out the window.

I've mentioned this to my mom and she despises the idea. She was so upset with me when I told her that she went into the bathroom and cried.

It hurt me to see her so upset and I wanted to change my opinion right then and there, but I knew that I would only be doing it to appease her and that technically I would be lying.

I think she was so upset because of selfish reasons: she won't be able to shop for a wedding dress for me, go cake testing, or give her wisdom through 25 years of marriage.

I know people say you won't want to get married until you meet the person you're meant to spend the rest of your life with. I like to believe the man I'm with now is the one I'm meant to be with forever, but I don't plan on marrying him, based solely on the fact that I'm fine with just living together and creating a life together.

Does this make me like every other millennial?

Maybe.

So if you ever see me shopping at a bridal shop, I'm probably a bridesmaid or MOH, never a bride. :)