You can't say it.
Others around you do, yet you just can't bring your self to saying that one little word. You want to. In so many different times, in so many different situations, you want to say that word so bad you can barely stand it. You want to scream it so loud that all the world can hear. In your head, you don't deserve it, you aren't worthy of telling someone else that little word.
You tell yourself it's okay, you even tell yourself that you're going to say it whenever the next opportunity shows itself. But when rubber meets the road and you're actually put into that situation, you just can't do it. You're afraid others will look at you differently, like you won't be respected or considered good enough. You don't want to be judged. That dirty little 'N' word is taking over your life, and you can't even say it.
For some of us, the word "no" can be the single most terrifying word in the dictionary. We can't ever seem to make ourselves say it, regardless of how many other tasks are on our to-do list. People like us have to do everything, and we have to do well.
It simply isn't enough for us to be a bystander, there is so much to get done, and if we don't do it, who will? You know if you're one of these people. The word "no" simply isn't in your vocabulary. People like myself have to be in control of everything, and the minute something doesn't go according to plan, you suddenly find yourself in the chaotic reality of your worst nightmare. All because of the word "no."
Hearing the word "no" can be just as scary. You think twice before putting yourself out there because you're absolutely terrified of that word with two letters and one syllable. The thought of someone telling you those words is enough to make you want to crawl into a hole.
If you can relate to anything that I just said, this is for you. Listen. It is okay for you to say that dirty little 'N' word from time to time. Don't let your need to control everything and to do everything yourself do you in. You deserve some time for yourself too. Easier said than done, I am well aware of that, but it's the truth.
Overcoming the fear of letting someone down because you don't know how to say 'no' is a whole lot easier than having to drag yourself through life because you overcommit and are pulled in a million different directions all the time. You are worth the time that you allow for yourself. Don't forget how important that is!
That little word takes a lot of courage to say, and once you do, you would be surprised how much stronger you feel. That one little word has the power to give you confidence and a bravery that is beautiful.
Don't hesitate. Stand up. Say that dirty little 'N' word every once and a while. You deserve it.
