You are something else

You don't call very often

And you didn't even seem like you think so far ahead

Unless I was coming to town

Then you couldn't seem to hide the excitement in your voice

It seemed liked you saved it all up for when I was closer to home

I've never once doubted you loved me

You always made me feel like coming home

But you seemed sorta unemotional

I kissed you anyway

everyday

And said I loved you

Ever since I was a kid

Even though I was young

I always hoped you knew I meant it

With every part of me small & even big

And I

Didn't know very much

But I wanted you to know you mattered

You were the best to me

Even when you seemed a little detached

It seems like you've been so tired ever since I could remember

I wondered if it was your job

Or the burden of not openly wanting to feel

Did no one say you could?

You're the gift of laughter

But when you tell your stories

Even through the laughs & sound effects

I wonder if you still carry the same pain with you?

The pain you've always hidden

It was none of my business

But I've always dreamed of hugging it out of you

Tight enough to crush whatever burden is haunting you

Is that why you feel me when I'm not there?

I've always wanted to know if words hurt you like they've hurt me

You were amazing, you know?

Used them strengthen to you

I've always wanted to be you

Unscathed by the actions of others

You were strength, and wit, quickness, self taught, unmoved

You were hilarious

And I cried a lot

Feeling everything

I felt my emotions would be the death of me

How badly I didn't want any

So badly I wanted to be you

I didn't think you missed ppl a lot

But as my ears grew older

I started to hear your pain

Through the weariness of the stories you told

Had you grown tired of being unfazed?

Or were you just hiding your feelings in the lines & adlibs of the stories you told?

Do you worry

I'll never come home?

I told you

You always made me feel like coming home

You are my home

You are the love I search for

In everyone

You are perfect

Know you never have to hide

From me

Feel

There's no need to be afraid

Your strength is much more

Than your ability to hide your pain

And even if you can't feel enough

Know that I

Will feel enough

For the both of us