You are something else
You don't call very often
And you didn't even seem like you think so far ahead
Unless I was coming to town
Then you couldn't seem to hide the excitement in your voice
It seemed liked you saved it all up for when I was closer to home
I've never once doubted you loved me
You always made me feel like coming home
But you seemed sorta unemotional
I kissed you anyway
everyday
And said I loved you
Ever since I was a kid
Even though I was young
I always hoped you knew I meant it
With every part of me small & even big
And I
Didn't know very much
But I wanted you to know you mattered
You were the best to me
Even when you seemed a little detached
It seems like you've been so tired ever since I could remember
I wondered if it was your job
Or the burden of not openly wanting to feel
Did no one say you could?
You're the gift of laughter
But when you tell your stories
Even through the laughs & sound effects
I wonder if you still carry the same pain with you?
The pain you've always hidden
It was none of my business
But I've always dreamed of hugging it out of you
Tight enough to crush whatever burden is haunting you
Is that why you feel me when I'm not there?
I've always wanted to know if words hurt you like they've hurt me
You were amazing, you know?
Used them strengthen to you
I've always wanted to be you
Unscathed by the actions of others
You were strength, and wit, quickness, self taught, unmoved
You were hilarious
And I cried a lot
Feeling everything
I felt my emotions would be the death of me
How badly I didn't want any
So badly I wanted to be you
I didn't think you missed ppl a lot
But as my ears grew older
I started to hear your pain
Through the weariness of the stories you told
Had you grown tired of being unfazed?
Or were you just hiding your feelings in the lines & adlibs of the stories you told?
Do you worry
I'll never come home?
I told you
You always made me feel like coming home
You are my home
You are the love I search for
In everyone
You are perfect
Know you never have to hide
From me
Feel
There's no need to be afraid
Your strength is much more
Than your ability to hide your pain
And even if you can't feel enough
Know that I
Will feel enough
For the both of us
