I wish I would have known going into junior year that it was going to be one of the hardest years of my life. My classes aren't even the issue this year, it's all the pressure I have on me to pass the GKT that is really scaring me. I have a few more months to pass this exam that has been kicking my butt since sophomore year. I have never really been scared of what my future might hold for me, but there's definitely a sense of fear and insecurity this semester.

Yesterday, I did two weeks worth of homework and quizzes just so that I could have the time to study for my exam that I have to take next month. I have never felt so burnt out before, and I know that this is just the beginning of all the craziness that is to come. It sucks being unsure of what the future holds for me, because I have my dreams and my aspirations, but I don't know if that is what God has planned for me, and at this point in my college career I wish I could just sit down with God face to face and ask Him what I am supposed to do with my life, because right now, I am really unsure.

But I find myself a little at ease, knowing that God does have something in mind for me even if I don't have the slightest idea. I have been learning how to have grace with myself, especially with school, and the pressures that come with it. If God gives so much grace, then we shouldn't be afraid to have a little for ourselves, because life isn't easy, and there's always room for a little grace. Nobody is perfect, and this battle isn't over until God finishes it.