Three, two, one... Happy New Year! New year, new me. Right? Wrong.

There's no set time when you choose to restart your life. It's a decision you, and only you, get to make. It can be right when you wake up, so that you'll have a fresh start. It can be when you are walking down the street and you decide to start anew.

Nobody controls your life. The choice is yours.

Recently, I have felt emotionally numb. I feel nothing toward anyone, at least not in a "crush" type of way. I thought of this as a bad thing, but I realized that it is the total opposite. It's giving me a chance to start over from a clean slate.

After being torn between emotions for over a year, I came to the understanding that I didn't lose these boys. They lost me.

This day allowed me to see everything from a brand new perspective. There would be no more letting someone put weight on my chest or giving them permission to control how I feel.

There would be no more granting them power over my own happiness. I choose what makes me happy.

I never thought this day would come, and I was waiting a long time for it to arrive. It only took 425 days. I am grateful it is finally here. I don't know how long it is going to take have a "crush" on someone again, but I am not going to wait around for that day.

I am going to do what is best for myself, and the day my "crush" walks into my life, I will be grateful that day finally came.

Don't let someone else control you, like a puppet on a string with them holding the end of it.

No one ever got hurt from having a fresh start. Hit that restart button. Start over.