Rereading Old Chapter's Of Life

Rereading Old Chapter's Of Life

Struggling to get your past the past? You're not alone.


This school year, my life has changed drastically: new home, new school, new routine, new friends; everything is NEW. Because of that, I feel like I've grown as a person to, which is awesome. However, something strange has been happening to me the past couple of weeks. I dream about past memories that I am not so fond of every night. This has caused me to think about those bad memories all day, putting me in a rut the past couple of weeks.

I thought I dealt with this past a long time ago and I thought I moved past it, so why is my past creeping into my new chapter of life?

Then, I had a couple realizations. One, putting your past in a small little box and pretending to forget about it all IS NOT dealing with your past. Your subconscious still knows your past exists, like I found out these past couple of weeks. And two, in order to start a new chapter of life, you must understand your past chapters. Like a book, the current chapter you start reading makes no sense unless you read and comprehend the chapters before.

So how does one deal with their past in order to move forward in life? Good questions, still trying to figure that out. For me personally, talking about my struggles with people that knew me in that period of time and also know me well now is something that has helped me, because those people knew what I was going through then and know how much I've grown as well. Something else that has helped me is journaling, I like to write down my highs and lows of the day, and I also like reading old journal entries I wrote, because it reminds me all the prayers God has answered and reaffirms my growth as a person. And lastly, I am learning to accept my struggles are not weaknesses, but strengths. A quote that has stuck with me is "a flower must grow through dirt in order to bloom." The dirt and crap in your life is just as important as the bloom. Forgetting that the dirt exists in my life is not helping me bloom.

Learning to bloom and learning to understand the past chapters of my life in order to thrive in my new chapter is not easy, but I am getting there. If you're struggling with this too, I hope you know you're not alone.

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The Dangers Of Electric Scooters

Lookout for the Limes. Beware the Birds.


They appeared out of nowhere.

I can only imagine a bunch of men dressed in all black showed up in big vans with tinted windows and planted them on grounds in the middle of the night.

And the next day, we were off.

I have to admit, I was slightly terrified by them at first. The traffic. The attention that inevitably comes with a bright green scooter.

But after a few weeks, I found the courage to face my fears, and it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever experienced.

I ride a Lime E-Scooter almost every day. Running late for class? Scooter. Not in the mood for the overcrowded, time-sensitive bus? Scooter. In need of a little pick me up on the way home from a particularly long day? Scooter.

The scooters have become my outlet, my best friends.

But I didn't foresee one daunting factor: the cost.

And no, I don't mean the physical cost when you wipe out and skin a knee. Not all the time I waste running around grounds looking for a scooter instead of getting on a bus or walking. No, I mean the money, baby.

The lime scooter isn't that expensive really. It is only a dollar to get started and then fifteen cents per minute. But, let me tell you, those few dollars and some change add up. I've reached the point where I'm scared to look at my bank account. I have no idea how much money I'm pouring into these e-scooters, but I know that it's way more than I can afford. In fact, at this point, it probably might be more efficient for me to buy a scooter of my own, but the appeal is just not the same.

I love that the scooters are waiting for me around almost every turn. I love that I can drop them off and not bat an eye. I'm obsessed with the ease, the speed, and the wind in my hair. Not even my bright green debit card can change my mind.

Should I stop relying on the Lime E-Scooters so heavily? Probably, yes. Will I? Most definitely not.

So here is a fair warning to you all: be cautious of scooters that appear in the middle of the night. They might just rob your wallet while they light up your life.

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