So, to be completely honest, I am a pretty confident person. However, the one thing that I am not confident in, is making friends. Or at least talking to people in general. Being socially awkward isn't really a set back for me, but it's not the easiest to overcome either. It doesn't mean that I don't know how to make friends, it just means that I don't know how to approach people if that makes sense. Everyone is different, but this is how i describe my social awkwardness.

One of my biggest fears for college was making new friends. It's not like I'm such an awful or weird person or whatever, but I hate coming up with topics to talk about. The older I've gotten, the better it's been for me, but every time that I talk to someone new, you can feel the awkwardness through the way that I act. And it's not just that either, I feel like people will just think I'm weird, which I've learned is okay.

I always feel like I have to say the right thing. I feel like I can push someone away that I think is really cool by just saying something dumb. The last thing I want, is a group of people just laughing at something dumb I said, so sometimes, I may even not speak at all.

I stutter. A lot. And it's not just when I'm meeting new people. I become anxious, and my hands start to sweat vigorously. Then I start to zone out and dissociate myself in the conversation. It's not like I mean to do this, but it just happens.

For me, one thing that helps me to get out of my comfort zone and to talk to someone that I don't know is that not everyone is as judgmental as they may seem. I know that some people may give off a vibe that feels like they're just constantly judging you, but in reality, they have probably been through something similar and think nothing of it.