It is weird to think that over a year ago you broke my heart. You were my best friend and I thought we would be together forever. But that's the funny thing about being in love, it blinds you and makes you see things that you want to be true. Here's the thing — I thought you broke my heart when in reality you showed me that there was so much more to life and all I was missing out on. So I thank you for breaking me and showing me how much I was capable of.
When we first broke up I was crushed, it felt like it was me against the world when before it was us against the world and we were unstoppable. At least that's what I thought. You broke me and made me feel like I was worthless within a matter of hours. I just kept thinking to myself, "How can someone you were once so close with become a complete stranger to you?" I still have yet to find this answer, but I am content that I will never know it. Being betrayed by my best friend was the worst part of the breakup; the one person in the world who you expect to be there for you is not. Now that was a reality check.
No, I do not hate you like I did before. At the same time, I do hate you for putting me in such a dark place, without the help of friends and family I would still be there. At first, I felt so alone and the worst part of it was you seemed perfectly fine. While I would sit in my car for hours crying, you were outside laughing and having a good time with all of our friends. That is one of the worst parts. Your friends now treat me like I am a stranger because we are no longer together. All of this seemed as if your world was brighter without me in it.
Our breakup taught me so many things that I am just now realizing. No, I don't hate you like I did a year ago. This breakup made me stronger as a person and showed me how many people I am surrounded by that care for me. It also taught me not to worry about the little things in life. You would always tell me to stop worrying and stop stressing about things, and it took me until now to realize this. I also learned that I need to start putting myself first instead of pleasing everyone around me. Our breakup ended up teaching me more things about myself than I thought I would ever learn.
So for all of this, I say thank you for showing me that I am worth more than what you put me through and that I am stronger than I ever imagined. I hope you are doing well and your life is full of happiness and laughter. Thank you for this experience. Now I know that I am better than what our relationship was.
