Dear My Ex Best Friend,
You were someone that I loved. Your love burned deep inside of me and kept me going on days that I didn't feel like flying. You made me laugh, you made me cry, you made me question who I was, but more than anything, you made me realize exactly how I don't want to be treated.
You see, you were the girl that I could come to with anything. You always got me. You supported me, cherished me, cheered me on, and loved me. We spent endless hours laughing at nothing, sharing secrets, and made future plans together, but now that has diminished. Over time, you realize what people are truly like. I've seen the good in and the bad in you. You thought that you could take your anger out on me, because I'd always be there for you... right?
Wrong.
There comes a point in life where you want nothing but simplicity and happiness. Sadly, you just couldn't give me that anymore.
I use to wake up everyday worried about what you'd get mad at me for. It could be something as small as me not having time to walk with you in the hallways, and you wouldn't speak to me for days. You were so entitled to doing whatever and saying whatever you please, but if I even tried to say something that you didn't agree with, I would be ridiculed. After months, I decided to stop living in fear. I woke up one day and simply realized that you weren't what I wanted anymore.
Our fights were brutal. Name calling went back and forth, you pulled the “chill" card that I didn't like, and would use names in vein that you knew I didn't approve of, just to get under my skin. Every relationships have there fights, but there were something about ours that I just couldn't live with anymore. After all, you believed that you were “perfect" and I was blamed for all of your mistakes.
However,
Thank you. Thank you for teaching me to not allow myself to put with people like you anymore. Thank you for teaching me how to stand up for myself, and how not to hold anything back anymore. I use to live in your shadows so much, afraid to speak up because I just couldn't imagine a life without you, but I've came out of my shell, and grew into someone that you can no longer control. Without you, I wouldn’t have been able to realize my trust in God. I always believed, because that’s what I knew was right, but over the course of our battles I began to pray. My connection with God has tightened and I have been able to find not only my religion, but my true self as well.
Others don't define me, you don't define me,
Only I can define me.
So despite your harsh words, bitter looks I'm the hallways, and twisted stories that you tell about our friendships, I will never forget you.
I will always like your photos on Instagram, I will always hope that you get into your dream college, marry the man of your dreams, and be as successful as possible. I will forever wish the best for you, despite what you wish for me.
Best of wishes,
Your Ex Best Friend
