Dear Old Friend,

Thank you.

Thank you for making me cry and making me question my worth. It was in those moments that I had to teach myself how to wipe away my tears and learn how to love myself regardless of what you thought. Thank you for leaving questions unanswered and blaming me for your wrongdoings. It was in those moments that I learned how to problem solve and realized that you were simply insecure and blind to the fact that it was your fault. Thank you for messing with my head and manipulating my thoughts. That taught me how to remain resilient and how to differentiate between my thoughts and yours. Thank you for everything.

I now know that I cannot put my worth into others, but I must dig down deep and find my inner worth. I learned that I am stronger than you made me out to be, or how you wanted me to feel. I learned that I can be fabulous without you, I can be happy without your compliments and pathetic attempts at flirting with me. You made me question whether I had a purpose for my life, and now it is all becoming clear. My purpose is not to please you or anyone else, but rather to find myself and make my life the best it can possibly be. I was not put on the Earth to make anyone happy but myself, although if you would have treated me right, I would have gladly put my time and effort into you.

But throughout this entire article, I still can not wrap my head around why things turned out the way they did. Our future looked so promising, we were so happy, and it all seemed quite alright. But the manipulation soon followed. You used your words as a weapon against me, and I happily went along with all you had to say because I saw you as my whole world. You were my rock, and you swore you were not like the others. And I so foolishly believed you so quickly, just because I wanted it to be true. But I soon realized I was not your whole world, I was simply some random person to distract you from other heartbreaks, other friends, other issues. And for a while all of this that I am writing about tore away at me, and left me feeling so vulnerable and raw.

But then I wiped away my tears, I dusted myself off, I picked myself up off the ground and I reminded myself that I am a fabulous and unique individual who can do anything that I set my mind to. I can laugh as much as I want, regardless of the fact that I sound like a dying seal. I can sing as loud as I want to regardless of how obnoxious you told me I was. I can dance as frequently as I want, regardless of how stupid you think I look. I can be myself and be happy knowing that you think I am embarrassing, because I know that at least I am enjoying my life and enjoying the simple things in life.

So thank you for coming into my life and doing all that you did.

Sincerely,