Most of the people that read the articles that I submit every week know me well. Friends and family that have known me for years, seen me grow and have seen me change. Some, however, are strangers and have no idea who I am, where I came from, or who I wish to be. So this one is for the people who want to know the author behind the pages. In true Snapchat and Facebook style, I'll be answering questions about myself that I hope will help people see who I am inside. I asked people to send me questions they would like answered (some are ridiculous) and here they are:
1. What is your middle name?
Surprisingly, not a lot of people know the answer to this one. Some people I've known for years still struggle sometimes. It's Kristen.
2. What is your favorite song?
It's so cliché, but I genuinely don't have a favorite song. I like so many of so many different genres that it'd be impossible to pick.
3. Unpopular opinion?
Fall is better than summer and spring.
The beach is an annoying place to be.
People who self-diagnose for attention are rude and idiotic.
4. What did you do today?
Slept. Ate. Wrote. Slept again. Studied. And now it's 1:24 in the morning and watching Netflix and answering questions. I live such a healthy lifestyle.
5. What are three things you would change about yourself?
The first would be my anxiety in any and everything I do. It holds me back on so many things that could be done, that I could be good at or enjoy but I would never know because I'm too nervous to try.
The second would be my level of perfectionism. Sometimes it's very useful but most of the time it just causes problems. I stress myself out over the smallest of things because of the expectations I hang over my own head.
Third would probably be my anger. I anger quickly and hold grudges for the longest of times.
6. Who is someone you miss?
Living in a separate state I miss a lot of people back home. I also miss a lot of people from my past that have stepped out of my life because of something I did or said wrong. I miss the person I used to be and yet don't at the same time. I miss a lot of things and people.
7. What was the last text you sent?
My last text was to one of my closest friends and it said, "Why are you up?"
8. What is something you hate?
People that backstab others. That feeling when you feel like everything is wrong and you feel like you can't do anything right. The feeling of leaving your dog behind and know they can't cuddle you when you're bored or sad. Not knowing what you don't know. Math. I really hate math.
9. Your opinion of yourself?
Honestly? I could be so much better but I could also be so much worse. I'll never be happy with who I am or what I'm doing and there's going to be dozens of things I am going to regret in life. I've come to accept that. I accept the way I look most days, I accept that I'm not the smartest or most talented, but I am me and that's all I could really ask for.
10. Some random facts?
Often times I have a lot of trouble concentrating because I stress about something that is completely irrelevant to the situation.
I overthink everything. I often think about quitting things that I like because I feel inferior.
If you hurt me or one of my friends my first instinct is to mess with you in the pettiest way possible.
I can hold a grudge for years.
I find genuine joy in childish things because I always forced myself to grow up too fast and now I'm in this weird stage where I use childish things to forget about stress (Disney movies, stuffed animals, soft blankets, cute socks, etc).
I am a complete romantic and soft but have been known for being aggressive and snappy.
I take challenges seriously.
I always want to be the best at everything I do and when I'm not I put myself down about it for weeks.
I like the ideas of tattoos because it helps me feel in control of my mind and body.
So that's the basics. There's so much more unnecessary information that I could put on here but who would read it?
