With the school year coming to a close, it's easy for it to be felt like an end. We're biting our lips as we say our goodbyes to our fellow seniors, and we can't help but imagine college without them. Life has suddenly come to a halt, forcing us to reflect hard on where we're at in our lives as us college students are moving up ranks.
Are we doing enough? Are we working towards our goals? Are we doing good? Are we able to support ourselves?
Recently, I found myself feeling as if I'm not doing enough, considering my age. This can be because I'm actually doing enough for myself in other ways.
I've been carrying around guilt for not having a job this semester. I've been spending my time reading more and journaling, which brings me joy, but it doesn't make me feel like an accomplished adult, even though I know in my heart that I needed this break.
I want to look for a job, but I'm not sure where to look. The pressure I feel from society is so commanding of me, and when I start to feel this squeeze, I catch myself comparing myself to others my age around me. Who am I to judge if I have nothing to compare it to?
When there are days where I need the extra sleep, I carry that weight in my thoughts reminding me, "You could've been more productive."
I really do beat myself up on my low days, which holds me back from my true potential. Most days, however, I dance through my days, letting my passions guide me. Those are the days that I get the most out of.
The days that I catch myself in the mud, I ease my mind by doing what I love. Sometimes not doing anything can be soothing for the soul. Productivity all the time wears us out.
Why must we be so hard on ourselves when we know in our hearts that we're doing enough? There are no time limits, only the ones we construct due to society's demands.
