I Want To Be Happy With Myself

I Want To Be Happy With Myself

Sometimes I don't like who I am but I want to change that.


I am not a confident person. Never have been. I'm really insecure. I don't know where it stems from. Maybe from me being bullied in my past. I don't know really. I've never been that type of person who could openly talk about their feelings. I bottle them up inside and never speak about them until I explode or get even more upset. I've never been the type of person to tell a guy how I felt about them. Nope. Never. I work up the courage and then I chicken out. I'm not even confident enough to talk to random people to make friends. I'm too shy. I think it all comes down to my insecurities.

I don't really know where it comes from. I've been hurt so much from people who say they care about me. I've always felt that I wasn' good enough. Or I wasn't pretty enough. And I don't just say it so I can get attention. I genuinely feel this way. Sometimes I feel insignificant. It's something I have to learn to deal with it. I won't say I'll have to learn to get over it. I'll probably won't ever get over it. I don't want to anyway. My insecurities. My shyness. My non-confidence. It's all a part of me. It makes me who I am. Do I like that sometimes I think the worst of myself? No. But I wouldn't change myself one bit. I wish I was a confident person. But I can't change who I am. I love who I am. And eventually, I'll love myself completely. It's going to take me some time. I know that. I just can't rush it.

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8 Lyrics From T. Swift's New Song 'You Need To Calm Down' That Will Give Your Instagram The Strong Female Empowerment It Needs

Let this girl-power ballad spark your insta-piration for your next post.


If you've ever experienced cyber-bullying, or if you ever feel caught up in our over-critical society, Tay Swift's new song "You Need To Come Down" is the song for you. While we live in a world with free speech, and especially as a journalist I am all for that, sometimes its best to think before you speak - or tweet. We should all try to be understanding and kind no matter what the circumstance, even if it means not clicking send on some Twitter rants. These lyrics are a friendly reminder to stay calm and focus on what's important.

1. "Say it in the street, that's a knock-out. But you say it in a tweet, that's a cop out."

If this isn't the call-out message of the year on cyber-bullying (in song, at least), I don't know what is.

2. "But I've learned a lesson that stressin' and obsessin' about somebody else is no fun."

We all need to remember at times that getting mixed up in drama isn't fruitful for our lives or growth.

3. "Like can you not step on my gown? You need to calm down."

Don't let the haters control you or stop you from living, just tell those voices to calm down.

4. "Why are you mad when you could be glad?"

Focusing on hate or being critical can be exhausting, and it's better to focus on the good things.

5. "Sunshine on the street at the parade, but you would rather be in the dark ages."

Show people that going into the light is so much easier than they realize when they are stuck in a drama-cloud.

6. "You just need to take several seats and then try to restore the peace."

Instead of trying to have the last word in every fight, try to be the peace-maker instead.

7. "Control your urges to scream about all the people that you hate."

Hate never made the world go 'round. Hate was never what Jesus spoke about. And some things just aren't worth using energy to yell at.

8. "But we all know now we all got crowns."

Don't be afraid to show that you are a princess and no one can take your crown.

This song is not just a collection of Insta-quotes, but also a call-out for all of us to live better lives, to remain a positive and uplifting human in this cancel culture world. By no means should we remain silent on important issues or let people get away with bad things, but we can choose to not get mixed up in petty drama that won't matter in a week. Let's agree to be kind to one another.

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3 Tips To Help You Ball On A Budget

Shop smarter not harder.


If you're anything like me you know that retail therapy can almost become a necessity to your life. Shopping relieves stress, makes you feel and look better. Though it may soothe your mind it definitely doesn't soothe your pockets. Being a typically broke college students I've picked up on a few shopping tactics that will keep you stylish while saving money.

1. Hit the sales rack first.


I believe retail stores make sure their sales racks are in the back of the store so it can be the customers last resort but when you're attempting to save money it should definitely be your first. Until I started doing this I never noticed how much most of my favorite stores discount their still in style clothes when they get in newer items. You might not always find exactly what you're looking for but it's definitely worth the look and the savings. Some retail sales racks I would recommend are target, American eagle, urban outfitters, and department stores like Dillard's or Bloomingdales.

2. Thrifting is your best-friend.

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Thrifting has became very popular within the past couple years and it's because there are so many hidden gems in consignment stores. Depending on the location you can find name brand jeans, purses, shoes etc that would go for hundreds of dollars in retail stores at less than half the price in consignment stores. Consignment stores are also good for vintage clothing and trends that are coming back in style such as bell bottoms, mom jeans or overalls. If you are fine with wearing gently used clothes thrifting is definitely a good way to save money.

3. Always use coupons and discounts.

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If you have a couple of stores that you shop at regularly the best way to find deals is to keep up with their sales. Sign up for emails, text or whatever way to notify you of items going on sell,most of it seems like junk mail but this is probably the most effortless way to save money while shopping, usually around holidays are when stores have the most sales so always be on the lookout to be notified, also being a college student use your student Id to your benefit. There are many retail stores that give at least a ten percent discount to students just by showing id. It's nice to see that some people like to help struggling students out a little.

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