It happens to all of us. That fluttery feeling in one's stomach, sweaty palms, and the excitement that keeps one up at night unable to fall asleep. If you're anything like me too, you have already planned your future with this individual from the wedding, the 3 children, and the beach house. The stars have aligned, and every time you meet in person, you feel as though fate is bring you together. Although I kid about the extremity of how a crush feels, there is no doubt that sometimes it's hard to keep grounded while the winds of "liking" push you over. (The winds of love is a too strong of a word for just a crush). Having a crush on someone can bring you to the highest of highs. But, it can also drop you from that height and "crush" you.
Recently, I have started talking to an acquaintance I had known for a year or so. However, upon talking and interacting more, the attention that they give seems is just so addictive. Yet, attention also sets up as a trap. I want to keep myself grounded and realize that these interactions are nothing more than mere proximity. Yet, I can't help but think of something more considering the immense admiration I feel for this individual. I have admired their hardworking, friendly, and seemingly flawless personality.
Nevertheless, the unrealistic aspect behind having a crush is ultimately the concept of falling for a stranger. An attractive stranger, nonetheless, but still a stranger. I know what I am feeling is nothing more than something superficial considering we have only known each other for such a little period of time. I know my feelings are justified enough for something more than just a crush. I also can't help deceiving my "crush" with the unrealistic expectation that is myself. I know they only know the aspect of my life that they interact with me regularly. They only know the okay or the better version, not the ugly. And, to a degree that hurts, and yet, there is a sliver of hope to be accepted by this positive, kind, seemingly perfect figure. Ultimately, the high of "crush is diminished under the expectation of reality.
