I’m sure that I’m not the only girl out there who had someone in my life that I pictured being with. I pictured doing everything with this person, and I sometimes still could picture it in my head - but I’m glad I’m never going to get that chance. Many different things cause a change in direction. Distance, different priorities, relationships and life can easily get in the way, and even if it these things hurt at first, sometimes it is just for the better.
I always thought that you would be the one, and even after our friendship had downsized, I still pictured a life with you. Even after you moved and after you and your girlfriend broke up and got back together, I still pictured a life with you. The last year or so, I’ve spent a lot of time getting over the thing we never really had, and here are the reasons that I’m glad we had the friendship we had and nothing more:
- I got to experience my first heartbreak without actually being in a relationship. When he ended up getting a girlfriend and pretty much forgetting about me, it broke my heart, but I didn’t have all the emotional baggage that comes along with the title of boyfriend and girlfriend. I ended up learning so much from the heartbreak that it pretty much helped shape the way I look at relationships today.
- Who he is today is not who I would want to be with. Priorities change. He is still someone who is into the whole social scene, when I just want to go to school, make money and travel. We both want very different things at this point, and I’m not really sure how those things would work if we were actually together.
- He showed me what to look for in a boy. I had a crush on this boy for years, so of course I had some things that I really liked about him - other than his crooked smile. He showed me to look for a boy who always walks next to the street when walking on the sidewalk together because he wanted me to be safe. He also showed me that a boy who has a good relationship with his mom is important.
- He showed me what I DIDN’T want in a boy. He showed me that I really needed someone who had the same priorities as me, someone who wouldn’t drop me off down the line for another girl and someone who really cared about my feelings and my emotions.
- Some people are just better as friends. You aren’t meant to date everyone you have a crush on, some people are just placed in your life to help you learn and realized what is the most important to you - and that’s something I wish I could have got in my head a little sooner.
Sometimes you just have to remember that even when you have a clear picture of having someone in your life it just isn’t meant to be. Even if he isn’t giving you the chance to be his girlfriend, it’s just what is meant to be. That special guy will come into place eventually, and that picture of the future will be even clearer. Eventually you’ll end up up where you need to be, with you you’re meant to be with and doing what you should be doing.
