As the New Year is beginning and I reflect on the disaster of 2017, I want to be able to make sure that this year I get the most out of everything I do. We all have New Year's Resolutions but we all know how long those really do last. I want something that I can do for the rest of the year, something that stabilizes me in the crazy world of being a college student.

I want to journal more. Sure, I write stuff down every day and I can reflect on those little moments I have every day, but I want something more. Bullet journaling, have a "One Line A Day" book, or just something that is organized that I can every day.

I was focused a lot on the people around me and how I affect them. I was worried about their reactions and what they needed. This year, I'm going to focus on me. What my needs are and to try to better myself as a person. I want to drink more water so my body and skin feel better, eat healthier so I take care of myself.

I want to do better in school. Although my first quarter I ended with a 3.8 GPA, I want to not procrastinate and develop better study habits. I want to be that person that my friends can look to for having a study partner to just vibe off of in the library.

I want to be able to love myself better. We all have that voice in the back of our heads criticizing us. I want to squash that. I want to dress better because I can and do things that make me happy.

I want to be a better friend to those around me. I want to be an open ear to people's problems and help them with it.

I want to grow as a human. I want to make a stance. To be someone that people can look up to. I want to better myself.

This seems like I'm being too hard on myself, that I'm making myself seem to be a rugged person, I'm not. I want to grow. I want to experience life, I want to love. I want to be the change that changes someone.

2018 is going to be my best year, just you wait.