I am 21 years old and growing up, I will admit I had low self-esteem. I did not like how I looked, how others looked at me and how others thought about me. I still struggle with it now. But as I am becoming more of an independent adult, I am slowly coming to terms that I am who I am and I should be happy with what I have.

Recently I learned the people and things I deserve are not always going to be in front of me and that I need to go out and get them. I am a people pleaser and a giver and there are times when I overlook the moments of me being taken advantage of. But that is not happening anymore. I will no longer drop everything for someone in order to help them. Especially when I know they will not do it for me.

I am tired of uneven friendships, relationships and work ethics.

It is 2018 and even though it is August I still have time to turn myself around. I will not wait for New Years, next week or tomorrow. I will start today. I am tired of being the person always going after friends, I deserve more than that. I value myself and others should see me without me putting myself in front of them.

I have met some people who like me for who I am and want to be around me without me having to ask all the time. That is what I want. So for the next year, things are changing. Some friends will be lost but it is all in the idea that I am growing up. I am at a new, , mature level of Deb. I have to think of my future, my own personal health and anything getting in the way I need to evaluate it and decide what is worth for me.

So this is for the girl who is looking for a change. This is for the girl that always doubted herself, her esteem, and her value. This is for the person who just needs the extra push to understand that you are worth more than what you think. I wish I came to this a lot earlier, but it is hard and I still have a long way to go. But I feel like I can slowly breathe again.