I guess in a way I hang on to it. I cling to the question of how someone could be so cruel. I look back and I see nothing but happiness. I just cannot figure out how someone can act like it was never there. I don't understand how you can hurt someone that adored you.

The funny thing is, if I could go back? I would've went back and steered straight of you. All the lies you fed me? To think that I believed it. I'm ashamed to say that I let my guard down to someone that never cared. The thing about it is, I removed you from my life and yet you're still trying to hurt me in any way possible. I thought you were toxic to me but now I know you are. I cut you out of my life and you're still striving to break me. Maybe because you realized it's done and I'm over you? I'm not sure but I hope you realize one thing, you can't hurt me anymore. I cut my ties with you. I used to be sad over it, which made it hard to part with it. But now? Now I'm generally pissed. Pissed that after all of the shit you did, you're still trying to be the asshole I put you out to be.

I can now look back and thank you for leaving me. Because I realized that I never would've been able to leave you. I was too head over heels. But you forced me to leave. I asked God why he would do this, but now I know. Not that I wasn't strong enough to leave you, but he knew that I never would. He knew where my heart was and that I would have and did look over all of your flaws. The thing that makes me furious is the fact that I was blinded for seven months. You knew me and you knew how I felt. Well, it turns out that I knew nothing about you. The more I reveal about your twisted games, the more I realize how much you manipulated me. You took my love for granted. Everyone said that you didn't know what to do with genuine love. They all defended you and said you never had that before. Panic set in. You left. They try to defend you in that way but you didn't just leave. You cheated and left. You knew what you were doing and you knew what it would do to me. But you chose not to care. I was the last thing on your mind.

So don't come back. Don't come back when she's just a one night stand. When she doesn't truly care about you. Because I did and you took advantage of that. I'm not coming back this time. You pushed me away enough times and this time, I'm going to stay gone. You won't hear from me. You won't see me. But if you do? I won't make eye contact with you, I won't look over my shoulder. I'll ignore your existence. You won't see me crying over it anymore. I will finally be able to go to bed without the tears pulling me into my sleep. I've completely cut you out of my heart and I will make myself forget that you ever were ever a part of my life. You screwed me up, but karma is a bitch. Good luck finding another one like me. XOXO